VISION And DIRECTION Via The Spirit

The BLB for today recites Proverbs 3:6– “In

ALL your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall

direct your paths.” I know that one in Hebrew, both

verse 5 and 6. This has been a HUGE “life verse”

for me on this Journey.

It’s evident in my life, that when I have allowed the

Lord God to DIRECT my path, THE PATH He

wants me on and to STAY ON, that is exactly what

he has been doing! Anything that He originally

didn’t want to happen, has “faded” out sooner or

later. Any PERSON He didn’t want in my life any

longer, any JOB He didn’t approve of me having,

any PLACE He didn’t want me to LIVE, it got “shut

down” one way or another—it’s truly amazing how

much has transpired in my life, just in the past four

or five MONTHS, let alone these almost three

years since I’ve started this Journey.

God doesn’t lead us down wrong paths; WE have

done that to ourselves! HE didn’t set us up with the

wrong person in our lives that some of us eventually

married—that was OUR doing!

Oh, there are some that would say we HAVE to fail

at some things, in order to learn how to handle

other (and possibly much harder) things in this life;

I agree, but there are HUGE “ticket items” like the

MAN or WOMAN that God pre-destined and

ordained for us—yes, that “special one” that HE

picked out, that perfect “piece” of the puzzle that’s

been missing all of our lives.

I tried to jam in those puzzle pieces that “looked”

like that right missing piece, but I FAILED

miserably, and lost 30+ years of my life either

married to or living with the wrong person.

Hard lessons have been learned, and since the time

I SURRENDERED over my ENTIRE life, including

the RELATIONSHIP part to the Lord Jesus, He

has offered me what He called a “final opportunity”

in “getting it done right”, BUT the catch was, it

HAD to be done HIS way and in HIS timing, no

matter how LONG it was going to take (and of

course,I got no “hints” on that), and how

HARD it was going to be. He told me right from the

beginning of my new Journey, that I would be

entering a “Season of WAITING”, and that it was up

to ME to agree (or not), to wait an INDEFINITE

amount of time, until He worked on MY life.

The Holy Spirit said, “The man of MY own

choosing” (His exact words!) was also going to

have to not only be “worked” on, but that “he” also

had quite a bit of “LIFE lessons” to go through as

well, so it was going to be a while. He said though,

He needed to start with ME, and although I had no

issues about that back then, the reason why He

said it that way, I just understood just a few weeks

ago. It’s all about God’s Word being LITERALLY

worked out and proven in my life.

There is a verse in the Bible that says,

“Judgment must begin at the house of God…”

You’ll find that in 1 Peter 4:17. The reason I’m

sharing this verse, is because the Lord wanted to

start with ME—that’s exactly what the Spirit said

to me. He was putting His Word into “action” by

starting to get me off those “crooked roads” (see

Isaiah 45:2-4), and on that straight, RIGHT PATH

He destined for me long ago. Luke 3:4-6 mentions

it as well, by the Prophet John the Baptist. He

mentions Isaiah 40:1-4, and how the CROOKED

ways will become STRAIGHT, and the rough roads

smooth.

That is exactly what happened to me, as

soon as I gave everything over to the Lord back in

December 2016. Even though I agreed to Him

“taking over” those troubled areas in my life,

especially my relationships, it wasn’t until the

Journey “officially” started almost two months later

when I “sensed” a greater PEACE like I never had

before.

We as humans LOVE to be “in control” of whatever

we can, especially our lives, once we are “adults”. I

wasn’t good at “adulting” back then, and even

though I considered myself a true believer of Jesus

Christ and His Word, I STILL managed to mess up

horribly. Thankfully, He knew just “when” to STOP

all the madness, hear my cries for help, and show

me in the “natural” AND the “supernatural” (YES,

the SPIRITUAL REALM does exist!!), what needed

to be “tweaked” in my life, in order to get me on

that PATH He intended for me.

I didn’t have to feel like I was just “wandering

around” without knowing what I should be doing

anymore. I had gifts, talents, skills and abilities that

He wanted me to USE for Him and His glory, but

also, so that I could get enjoyment and a sense of

VISION and DIRECTION in my life, heading me

finally, on that right path that is NOW leading me to

a GOAL. I’m living it out daily, as I WALK in the

DARK with Him, holding tightly to His Hand as He

leads me down toward my dreams, goals, and

desires, that He wanted me to have all along. It just

had to be done the RIGHT way, and not so I get all

the accolades for it, but that the Lord God gets the

GLORY due His Name in the end.

So my life has definitely “straightened out” since

December of 2016. I don’t have all my desires yet

—the “man” I’m waiting for, that the Lord HAS

promised and destined to me, is “still in the works”.

I’ve yet to finish my first book draft, but then again,

if you told me over two years ago, that I would

actually be writing a book, I would have thought

you lost your mind—why would God choose ME to

do such a thing? After all the mistakes I’ve made in

my relationships?? Wouldn’t He be better off

choosing someone who “did it right” the first time,

and NOT have TWO divorces behind them??

Nevertheless, this is what HE chose for me to do,

even though He originally didn’t want me to go

through all that failure and heartache.

Here’s a powerful Psalm that’s worth memorizing—it’s from Psalm 40:1-5, CSB

version (caps are my emphasis):

“I waited patiently for the Lord, and He turned to

me and heard my CRY for HELP. He brought me up

from a desolate pit, out of the muddy clay, and set

my feet upon a ROCK (Jesus!), making my STEPS

secure. He put a NEW SONG in my mouth, a HYMN

of praise to our God. Many will SEE and FEAR,

and they will TRUST in the LORD. How happy is

anyone who has put HIS TRUST IN THE LORD

and has not turned to the proud or to those who

run after LIES!

Lord my God, You have done many things—your

wonderous works and your plans for us; NONE can

compare with YOU. If I were to REPORT and

SPEAK of them (as I do!), they are MORE than

can be told.”

That entire Psalm is awesome. But it is amazing

how these first five verses really tell the story of

how I was, and now who I truly am in Him. I always

was His; but NOW, He has shown me that I CAN use

what He’s given me—the gift of writing, singing,

playing instruments, learning several different

languages, etc.—all for Him and His glory, and to

let others know just how GOOD, GRACIOUS,

LOVING and FORGIVING He is, even with a

Daughter like me, who “messed up”.

It’s never too late to get off those “crooked paths”

and have Him LEAD you onto that “RIGHT

PATH”—it’s waiting for you right now!! Even though

that “man” whom HE chose for my life, isn’t quite in

it YET, I know without a doubt one day, he WILL be.

One of the best things about following the Lord

God—He KEEPS HIS PROMISES. Even though

we’re known to break ours, He NEVER leaves us or

forsakes us (Deuteronomy 31:6), and He NEVER

gives up on us! He lets us know that as long as WE

don’t give up, we WILL “reap a harvest” (see 1

Corinthians 9:24), and that there IS a HOPE and a

FUTURE (see Jeremiah 29:11) for ALL those who

SEEK Him and ask for His help.

It’s there to grab onto, so DO IT, don’t just say you’re going to, and

don’t let FEAR stop you!!! For 2 Timothy 1:7 says,

“For God has not given us a spirit of FEAR (that’s

from the evil one!!!), BUT of POWER and of LOVE

and of a SOUND MIND.” We CAN have these

things—TRUE LOVE, primarily in the Lord Jesus

Christ; but He also directs those like me to the

“one” He chose for me; A Spirit of POWER—that

is the HOLY SPIRIT that will LIVE inside of EVERY

Believer of Christ—you will have the LIVING GOD

dwelling in you, and you can speak to Him each and

every day asking Him to LEAD and GUIDE you in

all that you need and want to do in this LIFE. And

WHO out there DOESN’T want a SOUND MIND??

To have PEACE, that “peace that passes ALL

understanding”, that GUARDS my HEART and

MIND—IN Christ Jesus (see Philippians 4:7)—who

wouldn’t want more of a peaceful life, going in the

RIGHT DIRECTION, and not wasting valuable time,

money, love, etc.?? I DO! That’s why I turned it all

over to Him, and I haven’t regretted it since. My

relationship has only gotten closer to the Lord, and

better with others as well.

The spiritual realm is beyond any human

comprehension, and there aren’t words (like the

Apostle John was saying in the book of Revelation)

good enough to describe what it really means to

WALK in the SPIRIT, and no longer in the flesh(see

Galatians 5:16). You just have to decide for

yourself, to finally acknowledge Him as Lord and

Savior of your LIFE. Once you DO, He WILL

“direct your path”, lead you into all TRUTH (see

John 16:13), and show you things you NEVER

thought possible before (see Jeremiah 33:3; Psalm

25:14; Deuteronomy 29:29; Daniel 2:22)!! Here’s

Amos 3:7– “Surely the Lord GOD does nothing

unless He reveals His secret counsel to His

servants the prophets.”

He WILL reveal things to you; you only have to BELIEVE, OBEY, and

TRUST in Him. Those ghost hunting shows have

nothing on the Lord God and the POWER He

possesses, and what He gives His people who

WHOLEHEARTEDLY serve Him. That’s a drop in

the bucket compared to the vast OCEANS of

supernatural power and ability the Lord God has,

and INDWELLS in each of His children to use for

the Plan and Purpose He has called and chosen

them for.

Go ahead—-I DARE you to WALK that walk of

FAITH!! Learn to “see” what cannot be seen by

human eyes, and “hear” what cannot be heard with

human ears! Take that STEP of FAITH today, and

give it ALL to GOD, and WATCH what He does with

your LIFE!! It will NEVER be the same AGAIN!!

Be blessed.

These Walls WILL Be Broken Down, For Nothing Is Impossible With God

I’m getting to a certain point in my Journey, where “something” has to happen—a “breakthrough” with either “that man”, and whatever God is doing in his life at this moment, and/or my financial situation (which I don’t see THAT improving anytime soon, especially what just happened with my recent so-called “temp to hire” job—the Lord obviously didn’t want me to “have my cake and eat it too”—I was told I have to WALK the walk of FAITH “in the DARK”, in order to honestly write a book about FAITH; I can’t do BOTH at the same time☹).

It seems I always have some sort of “wall of Jericho” up, that doesn’t allow me to go any further; sometimes I truly believe it is the Lord that allows those “walls” to be there for our LIFE lessons, and growth, and sometimes WE allowed certain “walls” to get in our way of furthering our relationship with Him, and His Purpose for our lives. As far as school goes, I just had to change my concentration from World Languages, which I had 88% completed requirements, to LATIN and Romance Languages, which just put me back at only 50% completed. That was the Lord’s doing, not mine. Whatever the reason is (Isaiah 55:8-9!!) He wants me to study so much Latin, He is not ready to divulge it at this time in my life, WHY He wants me to take it; but here I am, now having to go not only though the Intermediate level, but next year, into the Advanced level until I graduate. Lucky me…🙄😣😕

PLEASE take my advice: When the Lord insists on you doing something that you really don’t want to do, but you KNOW it’s part of His will—-just DO IT!! It’ll save you a bunch of wasted time, effort and heartache!

✝✨Getting back to my current LIFE situation, of course, as the Lord would have it, there “just so happens to be” a devotional today relating to my plight (guess that would account for another “God Wink” then, 😉✡️🌈right?). The Hagee Ministries devotional is titled, “The Impossible Made Possible”, citing Hebrews 11:30 as the verse — “BY FAITH the walls of Jericho fell down after they were encircled for seven days.” It starts off, “The daunting walls of Jericho stood between the children of Israel and the Promised Land. IF NOT FOR GOD, those walls were their mission impossible.” It goes on to say that even though there seems to be “walls of Jericho” that are impossible for us to deal with ALONE, God is there with His almighty POWER, waiting for the RIGHT MOMENT (His impeccable TIMING of it all) to knock them down. He IS the God “who makes ALL things Possible” (Mark 10:27; Matthew 19:26; Luke 1:37); all WE must do, is BELIEVE, and WAIT for those PROMISES to come to pass.

That’s where I am right now; WAITING for just about THREE YEARS, going through a lot of heartache, pain, tests, waiting for “that man” to FINALLY come into my life as the Lord Himself PROMISED and confirmed to me through all those “God Winks”, fighting off the flesh (which is NOT easy to do!!)and temptations in the meantime, keeping my FOCUS on Christ, praying for others, dealing with the Spiritual Warfare when it “pops up” (it’ll be in full force within the month—I can SENSE it already!)—and ALL this, on top of living out my life day to day, going to school FULL TIME, practicing in a band, being part of a church Worship Team as well, staying in touch with family, etc. Oh, and let’s not forget about the writing of this VERY BLOG, and the BOOKS that I am to be working on as well to be published!

I have QUITE a few “Jerichos” that I must deal with on a daily basis. But one thing’s for sure —the Lord is not expecting me to take care of them on my own! He IS here, helping and encouraging me through His Word, the daily devotionals, the perfect sermons I “just so happen” to find in my notifications box that deal with what I’m going through, brothers and sisters in the Lord that pray for me, songs, etc. So as bad and as intimidating as those “walls” in my life look, and as discouraging as they may be from time to time, I KNOW that they WILL all fall and crumble, because my FAITH will NOT quit, my stance is SURE in Christ and the PROMISES He’s made to me—it is written that “He is NOT a man that should lie, nor the son of man that He should repent: Hath He said, and shall He not do it? And Hath He spoken, and shall He not make it good?” (Numbers 23:19)

Here’s the CATCH, though, to being successful in knocking those walls down and KEEPING them down—you must FINISH what you started! There’s no “backpedaling” in God’s Kingdom! I started this “FAITH walk Journey” back in December 2016, and I WILL see it to the END, if it takes me ANOTHER three years to accomplish it!! Whatever the Lord has planned and purposed for my life, and “his” life, we have to just stick with it until He has laid out the VICTORY for us, for it is by Christ ALONE, and no one else, that we can have the victory over ANY wall of Jericho in our lives.

So as I continue to WALK in the DARK with FAITH, why don’t you join me as well? Tell God of your personal “walls of Jericho” that are being too difficult to break down by yourself, and allow HIM to work IN you, the FAITH, HOPE, and STRENGTH needed to get those walls to come crashing down! It’s going to take some time, so I’m telling you upfront to most likely NOT expect it done in a day, a week, a month, or maybe even a year or longer—it all depends on what those “walls” are, and what and WHO else, is involved. But rest assured—if you allow the Lord God to MOVE in your life; if you SURRENDER yourself WHOLLY unto Him, I GUARANTEE by HIS WORD, those walls will be GONE in the Name of Jesus, and I’m betting you too, will forever be changed and transformed into the BEST version of “YOU” that you could ever have been!❤✝.

Giving it all over to God in FAITH requires GUTS—do you have the guts to do it? Do you REALLY want to see VICTORY in your life once and for all?? Are you tired of dealing with the same problems day in and day out?? Then GIVE IT ALL OVER TO JESUS! Day by day, STEP by STEP, as you spend time with the Lord God in daily PRAYER and conversation, you will SEE the results, as long as you learn to BELIEVE, TRUST, LISTEN, and OBEY His Word. It’s got to be ALL HIS way, not “half and half”; no “part-time” Christianity, part-time in the world. If you truly want your LIFE changed for GOOD, then start to SERVE the living GOD who IS GOOD, Holy, Just, Merciful, Gracious, FORGIVING, and WILLING to SET YOU FREE from those WALLS that have imprisoned and restrained you all these years! John 3:36 says (and it is JESUS HIMSELF saying it!), “If the SON sets you free, you WILL be free indeed.”

One last thing—remember, God is a SPIRIT (John 4:24), and if you take Jesus in as YOUR Lord and Savior, the SPIRIT—that is, the HOLY SPIRIT, the THIRD Person of the Godhead, WILL reside WITHIN YOU (see John chapters 14, 15 and 16 to start, for further explanation)—1 Corinthians 3:16 says (the apostle Paul speaking to believers), “Do you not know that YOU are a TEMPLE of GOD, and that the Spirit of God DWELLS in you?” And “…where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is FREEDOM” (see 2 Corinthians 3:17). If that doesn’t give you a PUSH to go ahead and finally get your LIFE that is QUICKLY passing us by, IN ORDER, I don’t know what else I can say.

If you tried everything else to knock those “walls” down in your life, and nothing else has helped, why NOT try the Lord God?? He’s WAITING for you to “Call unto Me, and I will answer you, and show you great and mighty things, which you do not know” (Jeremiah 33:3). CRY OUT to the Lord, as it is written to do in Psalms 77:1– “I cried out to God for help; I cried out to God to hear me.” That’s all you need to do, so DO IT, and finally start to SEE the things I see, and HEAR the things I hear from God Almighty. He wants ALL of us to SEEK Him out (see 2 Chronicles 7:14), HUMBLE ourselves before Him, ASK for forgiveness of our sins, and He WILL FORGIVE, and HEAL us, and make us HIS OWN❤✝.

I’ll finally end with this—FAITH is a MAJOR component in walking with God; why should He show you all His wonders, when you really don’t even want to give Him the time of day?? BUT, if you ARE willing to give God an opportunity to totally transform your LIFE, then know from NOW ON, you will no longer walk by the desires of your FLESH—selfishness, pride, lust, stubbornness, self-will, etc. —ALL of that will have to be abandoned! You will be taken on the path of FAITH, TRUST and OBEDIENCE, just like me, and be led by His mighty Hand, in the DARK, on a specific ROAD meant just for YOU. There the Lord will lead and guide you in the WAY you should go (Psalm 32:8), and while you are WALKING in the DARK with Him, your FAITH will slowly but surely GROW.

It’s inevitable, in the Kingdom of God, that one MUST have FAITH in Him, to be able to finally SEE those things which most people do NOT “see” in this world. If you stick with Him, once again, I GUARANTEE by HIS WORD, the BIBLE, you WILL see your walls coming down, and you WILL have VICTORY over ALL your “Jerichos”. Hebrews 11:6 is one of my LIFE verses on this Journey—“And without FAITH it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes TO Him, must BELIEVE that He EXISTS and that He REWARDS those who EARNESTLY seek Him.” Be blessed.

“The Changing of the Seasons”, Pt 2

I will continue where I left off this past week, and describe to you the different “seasons” of my life. I kept it as simple as I could, and highlighted some areas that we’ve all have mostly gone through at one time or another.

BUT first, I will say this right now, and it stands for anything else I’ve already written and will write in the future–I am NOT here to ever put down, insult, or belittle anyone that I’ve been involved with in past relationships, friendships, workplaces, churches, etc.–wherever I’ve met people, how long or short they were in my life, etc. These people were at one point or another part of my life. We’ve moved on with our lives, and that’s ok. But I have to make mention of them in the most simple way, not divulging any specifics, for obvious reasons. I’m just using part of my LIFE story to describe certain times, areas in my life, and circumstances that’s happened to me, to get my point across to the reader. Some of these people I still have in my life to this day; most I do not. But I’ve also learned to LIVE , LET GO and FORGIVE, because honestly, in the end, that’s the best course of action we can take, in order TO move forward in our lives.

Ok, enough of that–here is the second part of my blog:

Let’s count together the amount of “seasons” I’ve had, shall we? My FIRST🌱was my childhood—it was really awesome, by the way; I had good parents, and was given a good home to live in, and great family to be around. Being adopted into a decent family was like hitting the lottery; the Lord saw to it for one reason or another, to put me with certain family members that eventually would be close to me until this very day. My SECOND🌿was going from a teenager to an adult; that was rough, since my mom just didn’t want to lose the “little girl” she was raising—typical parental issues🙄of not wanting to “let go”. This is also the time I was dating on and off, and had my first two real long-term relationships as well. I actually was encouraged by my mother, to “play the field”—just go out and date, and not get serious with anyone. That obviously for the most part, was ignored. 🙄😑 My THIRD🌵season, was my relationship with my first husband. All those years (and also those beyond that, since we did have a child together) seemed to follow me into every facet of my life, because I became a mother to my daughter Ashley during that relationship. My FOURTH🍃season, was in between my first and second husbands, which lasted about two years. I struggled so much to listen to the Lord, who back THEN was trying to get me on that RIGHT PATH, and to WAIT on Him for the right man; I just wouldn’t do it still, even after all the hell I put myself through with my first husband; I still was too stubborn, lazy and prideful to give everything I needed to, over to the Lord to bring it back to where HE intended it to be in my life. In that short amount of time to supposedly be AWAY from men and concentrating on the Lord, I ended up being involved in one way or another, three men during that time.😞😒🙁 It just made my life filled with more emotional turmoil and regrets.

So, those unnecessary “seasons” kept coming— the FIFTH🌲one with my second husband, which lasted for technically 13 years, although we lost a few months in there from the break-up. 🌾The SIXTH one was when I came back to NJ, after letting my second husband know I was getting a divorce from him. Unfortunately, this “season” of getting myself in order mentally and emotionally did NOT last long at all, for I found myself emotionally engaged in yet another “season”😳😫🍂 (SEVENTH)which should NEVER have happened, not only because technically I was still married, but it was like going from the frying pan back into the fire!!🤮 Sometimes, I really DIDN’T think before I acted, and didn’t consider the other hearts involved. Thankfully, that “season” lasted but several weeks.😣😞

STILL I managed to get involved ONCE AGAIN, in another relationship—bringing on the EIGHTH 🍁 “season” which also still happened for most of the relationship while I was still not fully divorced, but also this one the Lord ALLOWED to be the 📚“bookend” 📚to my “third” season’s relationship. This one lasted just a hair under TWO YEARS, and many major heartaches occurred that never should have been dealt with; but I managed to not only be with this person, but allowed myself to live with him as well, and soon became involved in taking care of someone who was an raging alcoholic, cutter and who had a major bout of depression, along with other issues and fears that kept him in a spiritual “prison” most of his adult life. He at least had the sense to go back to church, and I wholeheartedly supported that, but sooner or later it had to come to an end for us; he took his things and left, and I’ve no idea what has happened to him since. THAT right there😕, was the INTERVENTION of the Lord, allowing him to leave, for it was my prayer for over a year after we got together, and seeing all the horror this brought upon himself through alcohol and myself, dealing with much demonic infestation through the intimacy that occurred. 😫

😭Once AGAIN, after he left, I had to ask for forgiveness (which I started doing right
after a few months being with him) from the Lord, and since that time, to this writing, I’ve learned to be CELIBATE—yes, four years now and counting. Even though there was technically a NINTH “season”🌴, which was termed a “long-distance” relationship, it was only for about six months, and between meeting only two times within that time frame, and a handful of calls (mostly all texting) to each other from time to time, all that so-called relationship did, was ready me for what was to be the SEASON that introduced “that man” (that God had Predestined and Ordained for me)to me. I had NO clue what was about to happen! I wasn’t even caring at all about meeting someone else; I was emotionally drained, and crying out to God for help. What God had planned for me, came out of seemingly nowhere, for I never would have expected meeting “that man” in the way, time, or place that I did!

Season TEN ushered him in, meeting him at work, getting to know him as a friend, through many discussions and lunches together, talking about all that we’ve every really wanted in life and love, and as soon as the connection was made between us; as soon as the chemistry was felt and recognized to finally be REAL and TRUE, it was over. The Lord did exactly what HE intended to do—have us MEET, get to know one another, keep it at the “friendly” level, and had it end before we both could end up ruining things for OUR FUTURE together! That “season” lasted about 7 months, and it was over and GONE…for NOW.

The Lord had OTHER plans for me, a special “Season of Waiting” as I’ve come to call it, that I’ve never allowed myself to have with Him—JUST Him and I, walking together through this life as an adult, and having to learn and re-learn some things that I missed along the way, through my stubbornness, blindness, pride, laziness, emotional turmoils, and all those demonic strongholds that kept me from having the FREEDOM to “just be ME” for a time. The Lord granted me the ELEVENTH “season”, of which I am STILL in right now, and has lasted for almost THREE YEARS now; technically, the third year comes as of December, 2019. I needed this “season” so bad, to cleanse me of all those impurities in my life I allowed to come in; to WASH away so many lost years; to PURIFY my heart, and make me start to serve the Lord WHOLEHEARTEDLY, once He took me “off the shelf” and placed be BACK on the RIGHT PATH He intended for me to be this whole time. I had to be DELIVERED of all the demonic strongholds that I allowed in me (and YES, as a Christian you CAN have demonic strongholds! Don’t fool yourself into thinking you cannot!), and as far as my FINANCES went, I finally had control of them as well, for the Lord allowed me to take a class at my church to learn exactly what to do with my money, once I was earning enough to make a budget, tithe, pay my bills, and save for my FUTURE life with “that man”. 🥰;❤✝

Spiritually, I feel like I’m 1000% better than I was back in December of 2016. The “load” that is off my mind and heart, is worth my weight in gold! The FREEDOM of being ME is beyond anything I could ever have imagined, and being able to LIVE and MOVE and HAVE MY BEING(Acts 17:28), using the gifts, talents, skills and abilities for the Lord and His Glory and Purpose in my life, is what it’s all been about! I finally “got” it—it wasn’t about ME; it wasn’t about my love life, or how to make enough money to survive, or just to get married, have a few kids, go to work every day, visit the family, go on vacations, grow old, see our kids grow up, have grandchildren come into our lives, and then eventually, go HOME and meet our Maker. No; it’s MUCH MORE than that; we are God’s WORKMANSHIP, created in Christ Jesus to do GOOD WORKS, which God PREPARED in ADVANCE for us TO do.”(Ephesians 2:10) He HAD a Purpose and Plan for us WAY before the worlds were even formed!! Jeremiah 29:11 SAYS that we have a FUTURE and a HOPE in HIM!

We weren’t just created to be stuck on this planet, left alone to fend for ourselves, make the most of it that we can on our own, and then one day, die and it’s all over. No—it was meant to be MUCH MORE than that, and I found out in THIS VERY SEASON that I’ve been living , MY PURPOSE for why God made me in the FIRST place—because HE LOVED ME!!! He loves ALL of His Creation, but He also knows most of His Creation will never even recognize or acknowledge Him for WHO He is, and WHAT He can do for them, IF they HUMBLED themselves and give their lives over to Him WHOLEHEARTEDLY, as I finally did! My LIFE is NOT the same as it was—it is SO much better, and so much more fulfilling!!! I am still WAITING on the Lord for “that man”, but oh the progress in THAT area just in the last year—amazing!! The Lord God WILL share with each of you His “secrets” (Deut. 29:29), ONLY IF you let Him INTO your LIFE!! It’s got to be a 100% INVOLVEMENT between you and Him, or else it’s NOT going to work!!

This “season” I’m currently in, has been the BEST one YET, and I DO mean, “YET”!!☺😄🥰 I KNOW without a doubt, that the NEXT “season” of my life, which technically will be my TWELFTH season (🧐🤨🤔Hmmm…12, huh?? that number is pretty significant in the Bible…🤨🙂 😏lol…), will USHER in “that man” once and for ALL, finally, never to be MOVED, removed, taken, stolen, etc. from me! He has been specifically made and designed by the Lord for ME, and I for HIM. Allow God to bring YOU into the “Season” you need to be in, in order to get right with Him, and start LIVING the LIFE He’s called you to live!

Be blessed–

The Changing of the “Seasons” that God Allows Us to Go Through, to Come (Back) to Him With a Whole Heart (Pt.1)

Seasons change; they have a beginning and an “ending” to them. I put quotes around the word “ending”, because in a way, it never really ends. It’s a continuing cycle in this LIFE; I’ve had many “seasons” before, but rarely did I pay attention to them or what was going on around me. My head was in a “spiritual” and emotional fog–spiritual because I wasn’t being as astute as I should have been, having learned much about the spiritual realm and the Spiritual Warfare that is constantly going on in this world.

I wanted to go through LIFE not having to care so much about the spiritual, especially after having learned what I did; it was partly too scary, and also seemed like too much work and responsibility to take on at such a young age as I was back then. I was 19 when the Lord first called me to that appointment; I was again in my late thirties and married a second time when I started to pay more serious attention to it. The Lord allowed me to see many things, both good and evil, in order for me to realize just how much we ALL are in a war, fighting for our very souls each and every day. Yet, I just didn’t get up early enough to pray, nor did I fervently pray throughout the day as I have now been doing for the past three years. Oh, I prayed and I certainly took the time out to teach my daughter to pray, and also prayed with her when she was a child. But I became very much involved in my own marital issues, and didn’t pay enough attention to what was going on with my own daughter as she went into her teens, our relationship, and little by little I allowed the enemy to wedge in enough space to weaken me to the point of just not caring about what was going on spiritually, and not having the energy to care anymore.

My marriage was crumbling; my second husband left me during the first quarter of 2009–he told me point blank that he no longer loved me. I saw it coming, but I didn’t think he had it in him to leave. Financially, it was impossible; we were always hurting for money, because even though by that marriage, I was getting better how to handle the finances, my husband wasn’t on board with me, and so no money was being saved or tithed correctly. Sooner or later, between all that happening, my daughter was getting ready to graduate from high school (she was engaged to a nice young man who knew he was to be a pastor), and her breaking up with her fiancé a year after her graduation to be with someone who was a far cry from the type of man I prayed for her to be with, AND walking away from the FAITH that she knew since she was an infant, our family was finally in ruins.

My then-husband and I got back together a few months after the break-up, only because I begged him to come back; the next four years in that VERY long season of my LIFE, were hell. Even though we moved back to NJ for a time, in order to be closer to our families, thinking that would help us get closer to each other again, it didn’t help. Within a year and a half, we were moving out of NJ again, not realizing until after we moved back in April 2010, just how expensive everything got, and there was no way we were going to afford to buy anything there. So, once again, we packed up and moved ourselves over to Pennsylvania in October 2011, and after a little over a year and a half passed, the marriage took a nose dive, and I finally walked away in June 2013, giving my second husband the divorce he had wanted since technically the third year of our marriage, when he first mentioned it to me.

THAT was a LONG “season”–thirteen years worth of my life, that went down the tubes. None of this would have happened, if I JUST listened to the Lord God back nearing the end of 1999, when He kept telling me to WAIT. He had chosen a man for me long ago, before the worlds were even formed, but I did not heed His Voice, and the result of my disobedience was thirteen years of heartache, sorrow, financial difficulties, a broken marriage, and most importantly, my very bruised relationship with the Lord Jesus Christ. As much as I loved being married, I wasn’t with the man God intended for me to be with! So the Lord had no “choice” but to allow the natural things like the breakdown of the marriage to happen, and eventually, the divorce, because if it isn’t sovereignly predestined and ordained by the Lord, then it’s NOT going to flourish; it WILL end up “dying” out (see Matthew 15:13).

I can guarantee that if we all just STOPPED for a minute and took a good look at where we are in our lives right now, MOST of us are in “seasons” we should NEVER have been in. Again, there is the natural “circle of LIFE” that plays out, and the seasons that go with it–we are born, we grow up, we become adults, we go to work (most of us), we earn a living (whether it’s the right or wrong way these days), we get older, our body starts to break down, we get sick and/or disabled in one thing or another, and sooner or later, we die. Most people during that cycle, get married; many have children, or adopt or take in foster children into their lives. That could add many blessings or more tension, depending on each life situation, and mainly, whether or not those marriages or unions between those partners should have happened in the first place.

I’m going to stop right here, and allow all this to “sink in”, and I’ll be back with the second part of this, counting through the amount of “seasons” I had since I’ve was born, up until the present day. This was a long one, but chock full of real life issues that we’ve all at one time or another, went through similarly.

I hope you all will stick with me on this one–it may just open some spiritual eyes out there, and hopefully, some hearts to allow God to start working on those that know they need to finally hand it all over to Him, so He can stop the craziness of all those wrong “seasons” happening in their lives. Then He can change and transform them into the person He had purposed for them to be, since the Beginning of TIME.

Be blessed–

Can You Truly Function in This Life Alone? Do You Want To?

I’ve been on my own for the past four years; Oh, I’ve had plenty of so-called “opportunities” to have a man in my life, but honestly, after being put on this Journey back in December of 2016, and having the Lord show me WHO I should really being waiting for, and having Him confirm it to me several times, I haven’t had any desire to seek anyone else out further.

Have I been lonely? Sure as heck I’ve been! But functioning without a life partner is doable, I learned to realize. It was a weakness in me that the Lord brought to light, and for the past almost three years now, I’ve learn to be comfortable enough to function without having someone to lean on.

That doesn’t mean I don’t want anyone; I sure do! I am WAITING on God as of this very moment still, to deliver “that man” to me, in His own timing. I can live without such a one, but I CHOOSE not to, for I was MADE and DESIGNED by God Himself for a specific man, and that man was made and designed by God, for ME. I also want to be able to share my life, my love, my passions with him; there are so many things I want to experience with that LOVE of my life, who I cannot wait to be with. But for now, until God deems it the “right time”, I live and function alone, without that life partner, learning to become a strong independent woman who can be that better Proverbs 31 woman “that man” needs me to be for him.

The one thing I don’t EVER want to do, is function in this life without God at my side. A man is one thing, but not having the Lord God to lead and guide me, is a train wreck waiting to happen. Actually, it’s already happened in my life, hence the reason why the Lord put me on this Journey, and in a “Season of Waiting” for “that man” of His own choosing. But for me to be the woman of God “that man” needs me to be, the Lord had to “tweak” some things in my life that needed work on, and I’m way better now than I was three years ago, hence all the more reason I realize the importance of not wanting to function without the Hand of God leading and guiding me in this life.

Some of my loved ones and friends choose to function in this life without Christ; but they will never have the Eternal Life that is promised to them unless they give their lives over to Him. They need to SURRENDER their lives—body, soul and spirit—over to the Lord, accept Him as Savior and Lord of their lives, and unless they do all that, He will NOT be able to LIVE inside of them (the Holy Spirit dwells inside each and every believer—see John chapters 14-16). Period.

Mankind functions every single day whether or not they recognize Christ as Savior and Lord, and God as Supreme Being and Almighty God and Father, ONLY because of the COMMON GRACE that God has bestowed upon His Creation since the Beginning of TIME.

Most of the Earth’s population does NOT take advantage of the Saving Grace that Jesus is freely giving to ALL mankind. In fact, some have gone so far as to not only IGNORE God’s ONLY plan for their Salvation, Redemption and Eternal Life, but to insult the Most High God by saying there are OTHER WAYS and means that a human spirit being can achieve “higher consciousness”, or a “god-like” state. Some, like the atheists themselves, say one doesn’t need a supposed spirit being to better their lives—they can do it all by themselves within their own human strength, willpower and intelligence.

God puts each and every single person in situations and circumstances (most of the time, bad ones!), so that they have the OPPORTUNITY to cry out TO Him for Mercy, Grace, Forgiveness, Salvation and Deliverance(Psalm 34:6; 61:2; 77:1; 1 Kings 17:20; 1 Chronicles 5:20).

There’s only ONE PROBLEM with that—the strength, willpower and intelligence that they originally were BORN with, is from the LORD GOD ALMIGHTY Himself, so mankind cannot say that it is only through HIMSELF that he’s attained all he has, for that is FALSE.

There are still others who say that they have somewhat of a spiritual lifestyle, inviting other so-called religions, beliefs, faiths, etc. to enter into their lives, and somehow, as “spiritual” as they may seem, saying that they are OPEN-minded to all things, shut down almost immediately when it comes to God and His Word.

Why is that? Because mankind’s DOMINION and POWER were allowed to be taken from him in the Garden of Eden, by a sly and cunning fallen angel, disguised as a serpent, named Lucifer-turned-Satan. We CAN and DO have that dominion still, because God is sovereign, and Jesus was victorious over Death at the Cross; we just need to take up our AUTHORITY in CHRIST in order to HAVE dominion over Satan! Lucifer was kicked out of Heaven (specifically, the Third Heaven) (“I saw Satan fall as lightning”—Luke 10:18) when he was foolish enough to think and say that HE could be like the Most High, and somehow take over the Third Heaven where God Himself resides (Isaiah 14:12). BUT, I have to admit that Satan used all his gifts, talents, skills and abilities that the Lord God Almighty originally gave him when He created Lucifer as a Cherub, and made him “worship leader” of Heaven (see also Ezekiel 28:13-17). Lucifer was obviously so full of himself, that he didn’t bother to give God the glory thanks He deserved for giving Lucifer all those gift, talents, etc. to begin with. Lucifer LIED to himself, thinking and saying that what he had, he attained BY himself, FOR himself. WRONG ANSWER!! Hence the quick expulsion of him out of Heaven, and now that humankind was already in the mix of what the Lord’s plans were, God has used even Satan himself and those 1/3 that were convinced of his lies and promises of taking over Heaven, all these millennia, to PROVE to mankind, that the ONLY ONE who has POWER , DOMINION and the PROMISE of ETERNAL LIFE, and the true GIVER of such, is God HIMSELF, through His Son Jesus Christ, having the Holy Spirit living IN and working THROUGH His true believers, and NO ONE ELSE can share HIS Glory and Honor due His Name (Isaiah 42:8; Psalm8:1; Isaiah 43:7; John 17:4; John 14:6; 1 John 5:13; Rev. 4:11). But Philippians 2:9-11 spells it out for us, that ALL will bow their knees, and confess with their tongues, whether they be in Heaven or Hell, that Jesus IS LORD to the GLORY of God the Father! Amen!

There are always going to be humans, until the Lord calls it “quits” down here, that will just NEVER believe Him, His Word, or in His ways. He knows that; He created us. He knows how fallible we are, such stubborn, rebellious creatures, and needing of that spiritual REBIRTH and CONNECTION to the SPIRIT that was CUT OFF due to the SIN of DISOBEDIENCE in the Garden of Eden by Adam and Eve. Satan DOESN’T want us to have that one-on-one Spiritual “re-connection” with the Lord God Almighty, for IF we DO, then we will NO LONGER fall for his lies, schemes, and deceitfulness! Keep as many “in the dark” about their spiritual connection to the Lord God Almighty—even convince some that there IS no such thing as a “spirit body” (1 Thessalonians 5:23; Numbers 16:22; Genesis 1:26-27, which clearly states God created us LIKE the Godhead!; Matthew 10:28; James 2:26; 1 Corinthians 5:5, 15:44-47), but as you see there are numerous verses in the Bible, and those listed are just a few, that speak of God making man IN HIS IMAGE, which is a SPIRIT, a SOUL (the mind, will and intellect of a person), and lastly, a BODY. But most of mankind has ignored the first two, concentrating only on the last part—the BODY, and has tried to be glorified through that ONE aspect of himself.

As it has been stated before, God is NOT going to share His glory with anyone, nor allow His creation to raise itself above Him—it cannot and WILL not happen. Either we SURRENDER ourselves to Him, realizing that we in fact DO need a SAVIOR and Redeemer in this life, to lead and guide us, ensuring us along the way that we ARE His, and He works in, with, for, and THROUGH us, because of the LOVE that Christ showed for us upon the Cross, taking our place, and putting upon Himself ALL the SINS of mankind, OR we can in our own stubbornness and rebellious nature, remain steadfast in our sins, going through LIFE here without Him, doing our own thing, believing what WE want instead of what He has shown us, and remaining DEAD in the spirit until Judgment at the White Throne Judgment Seat, which happens in Revelation 20.

It’s OUR choice—Eternal LIFE with the Lord Jesus Christ, recognizing our FULL POTENTIAL here and allowing God to work out His Plans and Purposes in this LIFE (Jeremiah 29:11) that He has Ordained and made for us BEFORE the foundations of this world (Ephesians 1:4; Psalm 90:2, 2 Timothy 1:9), and so we HAVE this “HOPE of Eternal LIFE, which God, Who does NOT lie, PROMISED before the beginning of TIME” (Titus 1:2).

OR, we can remain in our sinful state, doing WHAT we want, WHEN we want to, HOW we want to, with WHOM we want to, and meet our Judge (Psalm 9:8; 50:4; 75:7; 96:13; Isaiah 3:13; 33:12; 66:16; Daniel 7:9-10; Ezekiel 33:20; Revelation 6:15-17; Hebrews 10:30–the Lord WILL judge His people; 1 Peter 4:17–the Lord judges His OWN, and righteously, so it’s OBVIOUS that those who do NOT follow Him will ALSO be righteously Judged!; 2 Peter 2:4–even the ANGELS will be judged!; Jeremiah 17:10).

It’s up to each and every single human SPIRIT being that has set foot upon this Earth, to CHOOSE this day, who we will serve—ourselves, a false god, or the One True Living God. One way or another, on THAT DAY, we ALL will meet Him. As Amos 4:12 says, “Prepare to meet thy GOD.”

Be blessed—-

I May Not Have “Seen” It Yet, But He Keeps Leading Me TO It Through This Walk of FAITH!

First off, I want to apologize for not being on here and blogging for the past two weeks—School was finishing up with finals, concert recitals, etc., and I also had to MOVE in the middle of all of that! I’ve been non-stop, even having to play out in a gig this past Friday at the last minute, and just in the past day or two, have finally slowed down enough to situate myself in my new living space, and just take a BREATH.

Stockton Concert Choir Recital, 4/30/2019 In photo: myself and Ariel Norbeck

As far as my grades go, it looks like I’ll be getting a 4.0 for the first time in my college career! I’ve gotten close in years prior, but as hard as it’s been on many of my fellow classmates and I this semester, it’s actually paying off! I’m so stoked to be able to honor God with my excellent grades!

Credit: YouTube lyric video—Danny Gokey

Now, about that title—I borrowed part of it from a song that I recently heard on the radio, which the Lord used not just once in the past two weeks, but TWICE😳✡️🌈, as a “God Wink” for me! I was reading one of my devotionals a little over a week ago, the Streams in the Desert, and remembered that was THE one that the Spirit lead me to taking the title of what will be my book series, and also, how this blog’s name came from.

The title of that devotional on May 1st was, “God Cannot Lie”. The Scripture verse was, “God that cannot lie, promised”, taken from Titus 1:2. As you read the devotional, it speaks of how FAITH is being exercised by believing that what God said would come to pass, is TRUE, and that it WILL, according to His timing and purpose of it all. The following quote that the author of the devotional uses, is where the Lord inspired me to get my title from—“FAITH, walking in the DARK with God, only prays Him to clasp its hand more closely.”—Phillips Brooks

Photo credit: Ex-Witch.com

I reflected back on these past two years, as I re-read that quote over and over again. It made me remember and realize that God has been moving mightily in my life every single day, and anywhere from one to several times a week, He’ll give me what has been coined by the Spirit to me, “supportive evidence” to prove to me, I’m on the right track, and to continue to WAIT on Him to bring me to the FRUITION of His intended Destiny for my life.

I absolutely LOVE the quote from the movie, “A League of Their Own”, when the announcer said at the end of the World Series game, “I’ve seen enough to know I’ve seen too much!” That’s how I feel by now—there is NO WAY after two plus years on this FAITH Journey, that I can deny God’s Hand in all of this—EVEN when it’s a song that “just so happens” to come on the radio, when I’ve been suddenly “led” to turn it on, and there it is!! NO ONE can tell me that God doesn’t move and do miracles in this day and age!! I’ll challenge ANYONE OUT THERE, to tell me different!! I’m talking to you BELIEVERS of God, NOT any unbeliever. Oh, I’d tell you the same, unbeliever, that God DOES do miracles today—2019, as He did thousands of years ago.

So those who name the name of Christ, and believe in the Father, Son and Holy Ghost (Spirit)—when God says that He cannot LIE, do you TRUST Him? Do you BELIEVE Him? He wouldn’t be God if He lied! How could anyone TRUST Him then? WHY would anyone trust Him?

After leaving the concert recital, not having anyone there for me, I felt a little down. Immediately I was wishing that the Lord would bring “that man” into my life, and let me get on living as a married person, instead of going through this desert “season” of dryness, and lovelessness. I don’t have my parents around anymore, who would always come to all my performances when I was singing, or in a play. I started to weep, and suddenly, the Spirit had me put on the radio, which I wasn’t really in the mood to do☹️😒, but wanting to be OBEDIENT and trusting, I went ahead. The radio station was still in their week of a “sharathon” mode, and to actually listen to a song at any given time, was a miracle in itself at that point🙄. Well, as God would have it✡️🌈, not only was there a song on the radio at the time, but it was Danny Gokey’s song, “Haven’t Seen it Yet”. It was about three-quarters of the way done, but with God’s perfect SOVEREIGN TIMING 😳 I heard from the bridge of the song, onward! Here are some of the lyrics written out, and then the rest in the pic: “He is moving with a LOVE so deep/Hallelujah for the victory/Good things are coming even when we can’t SEE/We can’t see it yet, but we BELIEVE that” (2x)

song credit: Danny Gokey

Let me tell you something, Naysayers—even people like Pilate and Judas Iscariot would have noticed God’s work in my life by now, if you don’t! I don’t say that to be rude or cruel, but SOMETHING has got to wake you all UP to SEE that God DOES work TODAY in people’s lives (“Jesus Christ is the same yesterday, today, and forever.”-Hebrews 13:8), but you have to “Call upon the LORD” (Ps.4:1; 17:6-9; 18:3; 50:15; Isa. 65:24; Jer. 33:3), and be serious and consistent in your prayers about it, in order to start SEEING the results! My “man” isn’t in my life—YET; I don’t have a decent job, or a place to call my own—YET! BUT GOD—do you see that??—But GOD “will (and HAS!) supply ALL my NEEDS, according to His riches in glory by Christ Jesus” (Phil. 4:19)! He’s been taking care of me every STEP of the way so far on this Journey! I’d be a FOOL to stop believing now! The “God Winks” that He has provided, has been astounding, and encouraging enough to keep me going, letting me know full well that “He that started a good work in you, will carry it on to completion(Phil. 1:6).”

Photo credit: In Touch Ministries

EVERY TIME I stepped out in FAITH, the Lord God has responded in kind—giving me what He did with that song on the radio, for instance. I’m amazed more and more, especially with the EXACT TIMING of it all! Even where the song lyrics were at the time I was led to turn the radio on, makes it even more astounding! It’s as if God was using the song to “answer” the questions I was crying out to Him in those moments. ❤️✝️🙏🏼 It encouraged me so much. My situation hasn’t changed as yet, but He brought me once again to a place of PEACE and ASSURANCE that He IS “working all things together for good” (Rom. 8:28). God IS up to something good, and as always, I am willing to WAIT on Him to do all that He needs to do, in order to make it ALL “come to pass”(Ps. 37:5).

Taking God at His word is something you the reader, are going to hear me talk about over and over again, as well as OBEDIENCE to Him, and TRUSTING in His word. I wouldn’t have seen all the “God Winks” I’ve seen so far, and experienced His wonder working power in my life, if I haven’t been BELIEVING what His word says IS true!

The man I am waiting for, IS worth waiting for, because the Lord God has HIS Hand in it; I am working hard in school, to not only do well for myself and my future husband and family, but also because it brings God honor and glory. The more I hang onto God’s Word and have FAITH in it, even while still in the DARK about what God is ultimately going to do, WILL lead me finally to that Destination that God had for “him” and I all along, and for whatever ministry or ministries He puts us in.

Photo Credit: Tony Evans Ministries

Waiting patiently is just one of the STEPS I’ve had to do on this Journey. It hasn’t been easy, but the Lord has been faithful to show me encouraging SIGNS along the way, to make me realize that He IS “perfecting that which concerns me” (Ps. 138:8).” May you allow Him to do the same in your life. Be Blessed.

Jesus Has Done What NO Other Person Could Ever Do—Defeat DEATH, and give us back NEW LIFE in Him!

Today is Resurrection Sunday, aka Easter Sunday! Christ is RISEN from the grave, and has defeated Death once and for all! Jesus has given us NEW HOPE, and a NEW LEASE on LIFE—Eternal Life, that is. ALL who desire to have their lives dramatically changed FOREVER here AND in the LIFE that is to come, are WELCOME to CALL upon His Name, ASK, SEEK, KNOCK—go to Jesus and realize how REAL He is!!

He’s not an imaginary figure; He’s not a Myth or a Legend; He’s not just some good man that walked the Earth for a time; He’s NOT like any priest, rabbi, pope, prophet, holy man, guru, sage, etc. that’s ever walked this Earth. He WASN’T a man FIRST, and then became a God, as one cult teaches; nor was He a “spirit creature”, or an “angel” that became a human for the time He was on Earth, and then reverted back to his “spirit creature” angelic form, like another cult today teaches. He’s NOT just a “good Prophet”, but yet still lower than some other “so-called” prophet that today is being “preached about”, yet STILL IS IN HIS GRAVE, awaiting Judgment!

No, Jesus is not like ANY of those people who have come either before, OR after Him. He’s the ONLY ONE that is GOD IN THE FLESH (Isaiah 7:14; Matthew 1:22-23). The LORD God through Moses said He would come, and walk among His people (Genesis 3:15; Leviticus 26:11-12; Deuteronomy 18:15-19). Jesus CONFIRMED what Moses said in Luke 24:27, “And beginning at Moses and all the prophets, He expounded unto them in all the Scriptures the things concerning HIMSELF (my emphasis).” Look also at John 5:46, and you’ll see that Jesus also said, “For had you believed Moses, you would have believed Me: for he wrote of Me.” In John 8:58, Jesus basically told the Pharisees, Saducees, and other leaders, flat out WHO He was—“Truly I tell you, before Abraham was, I AM”(See pic!).

The Apostle Peter made mention as well about how Moses spoke of the coming Messiah, yet most of them rejected Him, Jesus, when He showed up (see Acts 3:22-23).

More and more, people are desiring to know the TRUTH about what’s going on in this nation of ours, from the issues in politics, right down to the TRUTH concerning the very foods we eat, whether or not they are good for us, and how they are being handled. If we are so concerned about all those things, HOW THEN can we not be concerned about our very SOULS, and the TRUTH about there being a GOD, and His Son, Jesus Christ, AND the FACT according to the Scriptures (which have a 100% accuracy to this day!), there IS an afterlife, AND a judgment for ALL living souls, whether of not they believed IN Him! It is written, “ALL souls are Mine…” (Ezekiel 18:4). The Lord God Elohim truly IS the “Father of spirits”, as it is written in Hebrews 12:9. Even JESUS’ spirit had to be accounted for, and RETURNED to the Father, upon His death on the Cross—“And Jesus called out with a loud voice, “Father, INTO YOUR HANDS I entrust My spirit” (Luke 23:46, CSB translation). Ecclesiastes 12:7 says, “And the dust returns into its earth, from whence it was, and the spirit return to God, who gave it.”

It was GOD the FATHER who RAISED JESUS from the dead on the THIRD DAY, defeating once and for ALL, the sin of Death and Hell that awaited every living spirit and soul that walked this Earth. ONLY JESUS was without sin; so it was ONLY HE that could take upon Himself the SIN of the world, as it is written. (2 Cor. 5:21). NO ONE ELSE filled His shoes; NO ONE ELSE could “copy” what He did, and NO ONE ELSE will be able to allow us to ENTER into the JOY of the LORD (Matt. 25:23), when we, who are His, will hear on That Day, “WELL DONE, THOU GOOD AND FAITHFUL SERVANT…” There is no other way back to the Father God Elohim, EXCEPT through Jesus Christ, (John 14:6), His only Begotten Son, and it is HE who LIVES and REIGNS FOREVER (Ps. 146:10; Exodus 15:18; Ps. 9:7-12; Lam. 5:19). I’ll write this one out and close with it—Revelation 11:15: “Then the seventh angel sounded; and there were loud voices in Heaven saying, “The kingdoms of this world are become the kingdoms of our Lord, and of His Christ, and HE shall reign for ever and ever.”


When the Suffering of Jesus as the Passover Lamb took on a Whole New Level For Me, and So Many Others

I’m definitely “feeling” it this week; it is Holy Week, and the Passover is also upon us. I can’t wait for that, because I love to celebrate Passover just as much as Easter. It’s because of the Feast of the Unleavened Bread and Passover, that we get to celebrate Easter, or Resurrection Sunday, as it’s also been know as in recent years.

It’s an intense spiritual week for sure—the last week of Christ was chock full of energy, excitement, and emotion. What started out on what we believers call “Palm Sunday”—the day that Jesus rode in on a donkey (Matthew 21:1-7), which was prophetic Scripture being fulfilled right there (see Zechariah 9:9)—the people shouting, “Hosanna in the highest” (Matt. 21:8-11), ended with Jesus being arrested (Matt. 26:47-56), beaten to an unrecognizable figure (Luke 23:13-17), and nailed to a Cross on what is known as Good Friday, dying for ALL of mankind’s sins (Luke 23:33-47).

I saw “The Passion of the Christ”, when it came out years ago. I’ll never forget that day in the theatre—all the people that were in there with their usual drinks and popcorn and such (I knew not to get any that day—would have choked on it while crying), talking quietly prior to the movie started, were NOT the same people afterwards. I KNEW it was going to be intense; I knew that the previous movies about Jesus never really described in depth, what He truly went through. It’s one thing to read a verse or two about Pilate ordering Jesus to be flogged (John 19:1) or “beaten” as some translations have it, but it’s a whole other experience when you see it play out on a huge screen, and how it was done.

The Flagellum (Latin name for it) or “Cat of Nine Tails”, as it is commonly called (see pic), was used for the scourging of any person that was ordered to receive such punishment. Note: the Romans did not use it on their own citizens (see Acts 22:25); it was reserved for criminals, slaves and the like. It was designed in such a way, that just a couple of whips from the Flagellum, would start to rip the flesh off the person. It was usually about three feet long, with pieces of bone, glass, metal, lead, etc. attached to it, so that every whip from it would “catch” on to the person’s skin, and not only leave stripes and welts, it would tear away the skin bit by bit. The person would be tied to a scourging pole, and it wasn’t supposed to go any more than forty lashes; most people would have died from the scourging alone if they received as many lashes.

When all of us watching that scene of Jesus being beaten to a pulp, you could have heard a pin drop in that place. I remember looking around at the viewer’s faces; they were utterly horrified at what they just saw. No longer was it just a couple of verses in the Bible they read once or twice (if that), or something they heard their pastor or priest mention. Now it became that much more real to them. I started to hear gasps and sobs from them.

But Jesus endured all of it, and managed to walk to Golgotha (Matt. 27:33), with Simon of Cirene helping Him to carry His cross (Matt. 27:32).

Clearly, Mel Gibson got his point across, that Jesus truly suffered much more than other films depicted, and Mel brought to life what it says in Isaiah 53:1-10. I will write that entire passage here from the Christian Standard Bible (CSB) version:

“Who has believed what we have heard? And to whom has the arm of the Lord been revealed? He grew up before him like a young plant and like a root (the “root of Jesse”—see Isaiah 11:10, Romans 15:12) out of dry ground. He didn’t have an impressive form or majesty that we should look upon him, no appearance that we should desire him. He was despised and rejected by men, a man of suffering who knew what sickness was. He was like someone people turned away from; he was despised, and WE DIDN’T VALUE HIM (my emphasis, any words you see in CAPS [except for the word LORD] until the end of the quote). Yet he himself bore OUR sicknesses, and he carried OUR pains; but we in turn regarded him stricken, struck down by God, and afflicted. But he was PIERCED because of OUR rebellion, crushed because of OUR iniquities; punishment for OUR peace was on him, and we are HEALED by his wounds. We all went astray like sheep; we ALL have turned to our OWN way; and the LORD has punished HIM for the iniquity of us ALL. He was oppressed and afflicted, yet he did NOT open his mouth. Like a lamb to the slaughter and like a sheep silent before her shearers, he did not open his mouth (Matt. 26:63; Mark 14:53-65).

He was taken away because of oppression and judgment; and who considered his fate? For he was CUT OFF (see what the prophet Daniel said about Messiah being “cut off” after 69 weeks—Daniel 9:24-27, esp. vs. 26) from the land of the living; he was STRUCK (flogged, crucified) because of my people’s rebellion. He was assigned a grave with the wicked (two thieves that were crucified and died alongside Him—see Matt. 27:38), but he was with a rich man at his death (see what Matt. 27:57, Mark 15:43-46, John 19:38-42, Luke 23:50-53 said about Joseph of Arimathea), because he had done no violence and had not spoken deceitfully (see what Pilate (and Pilate’s wife!) said about Him in Matt. 27:2, 9, 24; Mark 15:2; John 18:37; Acts 13:28). YET the LORD was pleased to crush him severely. When you make a guilt offering, he will SEE his SEED, he will prolong his days, and by HIS HAND, the LORD’S pleasure will be ACCOMPLISHED (see Numbers 11:23; 23:19; Ezekiel 12:25; Isaiah 14:24; Psalm 115:3; 135:6).”

It pleased God to put Jesus through all that suffering, pain and excruciating death. Why? All out of LOVE for His Creation. It was NOT just for those who follow Him, and call Him Savior and Lord; but also for those who really couldn’t care less about Him, or what He’s done. The very BREATH that comes out of our lungs belongs to the LORD God; He could “cut off” that ANY second He chooses. He could have left us for eternal Death and damnation, but He CHOSE to sacrifice His only Begotten, NOT CREATED, Son, Jesus, the Second Person in the Triune Godhead, to make restitution for all of mankind. As it is written, “Without the shedding of blood, there is no remission (of sins) (Hebrews 9:22).”

There was and IS NO OTHER way back to the Father God, except through the death of Jesus on the Cross for the sins of mankind. BUT, God didn’t stop there; there was also that THIRD DAY that Jesus “just so happened” 🙄😉to mention about as well😏…❤️✝️🌈

I pray that you have a Blessed Passover, and Easter! Remember to honor God the Father and the Lord Jesus Christ, in all that you say and do. LIVE out your LOVE for Him daily, by professing His Name to others.

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God’s Word is So True, Alive and Active, the Enemy of Our Souls Doesn’t Want Us to Read It!

I know I usually write about my Journey and how God is leading me step by step, day by day in this current “Season of Waiting” that I’m in. But because of something that happened to me a little over a day ago pertaining to God and the validity of His Word, I must make mention of it here. It’s burning up inside of me, and usually when that sort of thing happens, I know it needs to be “said” to the masses.

First off, I’m going to say that God doesn’t necessarily need to me to “fight” His battles, when it comes to letting people know about the validity of His word, and how it’s been preserved over these thousands of years. His Word is exalted above even His Name (Psalm 138:2). But, I AM His daughter, one of many, and since my very eternal LIFE depends on His Word being TRUE and learning (some of it the hard way!) to adhere to the Bible, by reading it, studying it, and LIVING it out, I DO stand up for Him and His Word, when others try to either trash it, make fun of it, misunderstand it, twist it, or worse yet, try to put their belief’s traditions, rules, regulations, etc., ABOVE what God’s Word says(see Matthew 15:3;Mark 7:8-9, 13). The apostle Peter and the others with him said in Acts 5:29, that “we ought to obey God rather than men.” They knew full well not to take man’s traditions and put them above God and His Word.

I myself came out of a church that did exactly that; I’m not saying traditions are bad, but when they start to ursurp God and His Word, then that places that “faith” in a very dangerous position. They’re heading down the road to being an apostate, or worse yet, a false religion or cult. That is NOT where one wants to find one’s self, at the end of their days, realizing that they “did it all wrong” by following in the footsteps of Adam and Eve, who believed the lie from Satan, and allowed DOUBT of God’s word to creep in, and basically destroy all hopes of mankind having eternal communion with God, until JESUS (thank You, Lord!) stepped in (see Gen. 3:15, first Messianic prophecy), and took our place at the Cross!❤️✝️ If we call Jesus Lord and Savior of our lives, and read, study and live by the Bible, we shouldn’t let the enemy of our souls deceive us, nor the precious souls that are still lost in this world, letting them believe the lies of Satan, thinking that God and His Word are not true, and cannot be trusted. Let me explain further by going a little more into my Journey that I’ve been writing about in my blog:

During those 30 years on my “crooked path”, the Lord was still with me; I was called and chosen by Him, to “work” for Him, and use whatever gifts, talents, skills, and abilities He’s given me, for the betterment of the Kingdom, and for His glory and honor. Once I finally was taken “off the shelf”, back in December, 2016 and decided to wholeheartedly follow Him, giving Him total Reign over everything in my life, including my relationships (which was a HUGE thing for me to let go of!), THEN, and only then, did I finally <<click>> into His “Wheel”, and became a cog that has been “fitting” smoothly, going where He goes, doing whatever He wants me to do, and THAT is the main reason why I ‘ve seen and experienced so many “God Winks”—walking with FAITH in the DARK, holding His Hand, produces those “God Winks”—it’s one of God’s ways of “speaking” to me (and other believers!), letting me know that He sees and hears all that I and all other believers are doing and going through, and from time to time, sends us such “notes” of encouragment. They’ve answered many a question I’ve asked, calmed me down when I was fretting, quieted my spirit when I was afraid or starting to think He wasn’t listening, AND even strengthened me much during this whole Journey, giving me the stamina and determination to continue onward. Some of these “God Winks” are the Scriptures that I’ve seen in my daily devotionals that have “fit” exactly to the “T” hundreds of times now over the past two years, moving me forward in my FAITH walk, letting me know over and over again, just how ALIVE and active His Word is in my life, and it’s just one of the ways how God “speaks” to each one of His children that are listening to Him. I know that He’ll continue to reveal Himself more to me as the time goes on, and have the pieces of this “Journey” puzzle fit together, until this “Season of Waiting” that I’ve been in, comes to an end. Until then, as long as I continue to walk according to His Will and purpose for my life, whatever He is “weaving” for me and everyone else involved in and around my life, I WILL continue to see and experience these “God Winks”.

Trials, tribulation, and temptation are also part of the Journey; along with that, is the Spiritual Warfare portion—not my favorite part of this whole thing, that’s for sure🙄😒. I wish THAT could be left out. But, Satan hasn’t stopped stealing, killing, and destroying (John 10:10), and won’t, until the Lord Jesus throws him into the Pit for 1,000 years (Rev. 20:3), and then finally, into the Lake of Fire (Rev. 20:10). All those who never came to the Lord, and who were judged at the White Throne Judgment (Rev. 20:11), according to their WORKS (Rev. 20:12-13), will also meet their end there. Until the DAY that I am HOME with the Lord, I have to endure such Warfare; I am not the only one—EVERY single person that names the Name of Christ, if they are truly serving Him, comes under such satanic attacks. But, we have to recognize what is a spiritual attack, and not allow ourselves to be deceived into thinking it’s just people that are the enemy.

Human spirits, as stiffnecked and stubborn as they are🙄, are the ONLY ones that can be redeemed, hence the reason why the enemy of our Souls keeps making the majority of the Earth’s population think that HUMANS are the problem, their RELIGIONS and BELIEFS are the problem, their POLITICAL VIEWS are the problem, etc., when all along it’s HIM—Satan, that’s being ALLOWED to make all the confusion and confrontations that occur. Hatred, Fear, Pride, Arrogance, Dread, belief in False gods, etc., end up producing Sickness, Disease, and Death, in most of the world’s population, and it’s all because we’re sitting here, blaming each other, when HE’S been the instigator the whole time. He’s not called “the accuser of the brethren” (Rev. 20:10) for nothing. But he doesn’t just go after the believers. Those who couldn’t care less about God, the Bible, and believe nothing about the spiritual realm or the afterlife are also widely targeted by Satan.

Humans that don’t believe in the spiritual realm, are just the type of people Satan and his demons are counting on, so that he can continue to confuse and confound mankind to NOT believe in the Lord God Almighty, Who “just so happened” to be his BOSS (Lucifer was THE Worship Leader in Heaven—he was the one that was responsible for the Music—God gave him that job, and as soon as he got kicked out of Heaven, he PERVERTED all the gifts given to him, and used them all for EVIL henceforth). HE is the main reason why we have so many different religions, false gods, even “Christian” sects!! Anything and everything to point in the opposite direction of the Lord God Almighty, is what Satan has done, and we as blind men, have followed him, and some will continue, right into the Lake of Fire.

“If you can’t beat them, join them”, was a popular saying as I grew up. Well, it makes sense when it comes to what Satan and his cohorts, the demons (some of them fallen angels) have come up with, especially all the false religions, but even better still, are those “Christian” sects that are SO CLOSE to the real Biblical born-again New Life in Christ, that with just a “tweak” here and a “switch” there, some people have fallen for what SEEMS like Biblical Christianity, but in reality, they are almost as lost as the unsaved. HENCE the reason why every believer in Christ NEEDS to know the Bible, backwards and forwards! Every non-believer should NOT just “dismiss” it as hogwash, or some mystical “mumbo-jumbo”, without checking it out for themselves! Put it to the test, people! SEEK God out (Deut. 4:29; Psalm 14:2; Matt. 6:33)! Sincerely CALL out to Him, and He WILL answer you (Jer. 33:3; Psalm 18:6; 107:27-28; Psalm 34:17; Romans 10:9-13)! The LAST thing that Satan wants a human spirit to do, is to call on the VERY ONE that he used to praise and worship himself!!

Scripture says we have to be “wise as serpents and harmless as doves” (Matt. 10:16, NKJV). 1 Peter 5:8 tells us to “be sober, be vigilant, because your advesary the devil walks about like a roaring lion, seeking whom he may devour.” Jesus told us flat out, that HE was the ONLY way, the TRUTH and the LIFE (John 14:6), and that NO man, NO religion, NO cult, NO “ism” or any other way is going to lead mankind back to the Father, but by JESUS and HIM alone. I’m going to use caps here, folks, because it’s THAT important—we’re talking your ETERNAL SOULS, here: IF IT DOESN’T POINT BACK TO JESUS BEING THE LORD AND SAVIOR OF YOUR LIFE; IF HE ISN’T BEING CALLED “THE SECOND PERSON OF THE GODHEAD” (Father, Son, and Holy Spirit); IF HE ISN’T BEING RECOGNIZED AS “THE IMAGE OF THE INVISIBLE GOD” (Colossians 1:15), and that after you TESTED THE SPIRITS (1 John 4:1-3), to see whether or not that particular “faith” you want to get into, is the REAL THING, and they tell you in one way or another, that Jesus is a good or great man, or Prophet, or even goes as far as to say that He is the Son of God, but a LESSER god😳🚩, or that the god they serve never HAD a Son, or spoke about Him, or TO Him (Genesis 1:26; 11:7; Psalm 2:7, 12; Mark 1:11; Luke 3:22)—or that He was only a spirit creature, and was never really fully human AND divine at the same time (God in human form = Immanuel = “God with us”) as it is written in Isaiah 7:14; Matt. 1:23; Zeph. 3:17; Matthew 28:20; John 1:14; 14:9,16-17, THEN you may be getting into something that has nothing to do with the real God of the Bible, or His Son, Jesus Christ, or the Holy Spirit, Who is the Comforter, Counselor, and Who dwells in each and every believer (see John chap. 14-16 about the Holy Spirit’s role in our lives!)!

Satan will do whatever it takes, to make God look like the liar, and not him! Messing around with God’s Word is a very serious offense. The Lord God had it written in Deut. 4:2, Proverbs 30:5-6, and Revelation 22:18-19, commanding us to not add to, nor delete from His Word. He has been able to protect His Sovereign Word from every enemy that has tried to eradicate it one way or another. He will NEVER let that happen; it is written in Isaiah 40:8, “The grass withers; the flower fades, but the Word of our God stands FOREVER.” Matthew 24:35 also states (Jesus Himself speaking), “Heaven and Earth may pass away, but My words will not pass away.”(ESV) God has protected His word throughout the thousands of years; He wants us to get to KNOW HIM and His Son, Jesus, by reading, studying, PRAYING, calling out to Him, and living out His Word in our daily lives, just as I am doing in my FAITH walk. We need to learn to TRUST GOD more than man; Numbers 23:19 says, “God is not a man that He should lie, nor the son of man that He should repent: has He said, and shall He not do it? Or has He spoken, and shall He not make it good?” (AKVJ) Satan has done an “excellent” job unfortunately, duping most of us at one point or another (even believers!), to NOT take God’s word so seriously. That’s a HUGE “nail in the coffin” for him if one not only starts to BELIEVE in the Lord Jesus Christ, but then TAKES GOD AT HIS WORD—that kills Satan “on the spot”!

Trusting IN God, OBEYING Him, learning to lean on Him, humbling ourselves before Him, meditating on His Word, getting to know Him better, and seeing supernatural Holy Spirit-inspired “God Winks”, or whatever you the reader may want to call them when God answers your prayers—all these things I have been doing faithfully for the past two plus years, and NOT ONCE has He failed me!! NOT ONCE have I gone hungry, or had any other needs not met. Once a person (like myself) hands their ENTIRE LIVES over to the Lord God, and starts to serve HIM, it can only BE a “win-win” situation! Oh, the trials, tribulations temptations, and occasional bouts of Spiritual Warfare will be there—it goes with the “territory”. But God has given us His Word to learn more about Him, and gain wisdom, knowledge, and understanding; also for us to grow, mature and use to fight the evil in this world with—“All Scripture is inspired by God and is profitable for teaching, for rebuking, for correcting, for training in righteousness, so that the man of God may be COMPLETE, equipped for every good work.” (2 Timothy 3:16-17). We ARE overcomers of evil when we have God on our side!!

God has also given us this Word so we can live out our PURPOSE here on Earth, and find out what God’s WILL is for our lives. He has SOVEREIGNLY made a plan for each one of us (Jeremiah 29:11); but it is up to US to find out what that plan is. The only way we’re going to find out, is if we CALL upon the Name of the Lord, and ASK, SEEK, and KNOCK (Matt.7:7).

Do NOT allow that spirit of DOUBT that got to Adam and Eve(Genesis 3:1), get to you! Satan is a LIAR, and the father of lies(Jonn 8:44)! LIVE OUT the Purpose that God Pre-destined for you! You are PRECIOUS in His sight (Isaiah 43:4)! Your life COUNTS to Him; learn to be a blessing to others, and give God all the honor and glory due His Name. Be blessed. ❤️✝️

Just in Case You Didn’t Know, I’m really NOT a Unicorn… or am I??

I mean, I AM a flesh and blood female; I’m not a robot either, and I like how more and more we have to “prove” ourselves on some sites so they know we’re real live human beings! But I’m starting to think that I’m invisible, or someone that some people (mainly guys!) think I was a “figment” of their imagination…🙄😒😔

My friend Terry is right; I am a 🦄Unicorn. I’m something that seemingly doesn’t exist to a guy. I mean, c’mon—can there 🙄REALLY be women out there that ARE good, and love God, and would be loving, romantic, AND respectful to their man??🤔🤨 (YES, I’m right here🥺!!!) Oh, and of course she has to be pretty, neat, somewhat organized; she should have a good job, or at least working towards one, or pursuing whatever goal or dream she has. She hopefully is a hard worker, honest, speaking the truth but with love, not hitting the man over the head and nagging him all the time😒; also thoughtful, kind, considerate. And forgiving—she’s GOT to be forgiving, because men even into their 40’s and 50’s still act like 12 year old boys at times🤪 (I’m not saying I never get like that🙄—I could SWEAR I heard a Voice in my spirit say to me one day when I was complaining about this and that—“52 going on 12”😳!). Did I mention she should have a good sense of humor?? 😆😉😏 She’ll tell you like it is, but knows when to be still and quiet as well. Check, check, and check.😉✅ Oh, and for the love of everything good, she CAN’T try to change the man😫😩!! That’s HUGE!! He KNOWS he needs to change—it’s on his mind constantly, but unless he HAS a good enough reason to, sometimes he just “gives up” and no longer cares.

She’s got to be the type of woman that leaves such an impression on him, that he DOES care enough to move forward in his life, make those changes, and MOVE ON, and GET that woman! If he has her already, then make her realize she’s WORTH it to him TO do whatever it takes to keep her (and yes, she should let HIM know as well, that he means that much to her!).

That type of woman is a RARE thing—a “RUBY” in the Lord’s eyes; precious in His sight, so of course, for the man that ends up with her, he’s going to finally feel like he won the lottery ten times over, but money could NEVER replace the LOVE she’ll have for him🥰—that in ITSELF, is worth the effort in pursuing such a woman. And ladies, that type of man is also WORTH WAITING FOR, hence me doing just that for the last two plus years! For a man to finally feel LOVED and RESPECTED, is all that he needs. He’ll lasso the moon🌕 for her just to let her know how much she means to him.❤️ With the love that blooms and grows between them, all those “changes” that needed to take place in BOTH of their lives (yes, ladies, we have things WE need to change about ourselves as well😉), little by little, it happens. They get closer to one another; are so comfortable in each other’s presence, and the trust that grows between them, it just “happens”—they start to “blend” and become ONE with another. He doesn’t want to do or say certain things that he knew wasn’t right in the first place; she realizes that there’s no need to nag, or “push buttons”—enough “buttons” have been pushed by others in their past lives. They want this to happen; they want this to work, and somehow, they always “knew” it would. LOVE continues to grow after a while, and before they know it, they realize that they were always “meant to be”. Their love🥰for one another means more to them than anything else—except God Himself. They realize that if it wasn’t for HIM, they wouldn’t have even met. He set this up for them. He knew how and when it would work out best for them. They may have messed up a few times prior, but that doesn’t even matter anymore. What matters now, is they finally got it RIGHT.❤️

That’s what THIS 🦄Unicorn wants to have happen to HER. That’s why I’m waiting on God to bring me “him”. He’s out there; I know he is. God has assured me, via several “God Wink” confirmations 💜🌈 that I am NOT waiting for nothing. BUT, it HAS to be in HIS timing, and in the way HE’S going to bring it about. No more rushing ahead or falling behind for me; let the Lord take care of it. I’ve done enough damage in my own life, and even though it wasn’t intentional, in the lives of others. I don’t mind WAITING, even though this is one of the HARDEST things I could have ever done in my life; not so much the WAITING or TRUSTING God part, but the LONLINESS😣😞💔part. THAT’S the “killer”; I’ve never been a solitary this long in my life, since I was 18. But, it had to be THIS way this time, in order for God to do what HE needs to do in ME, and in “him”. When He decides we’re both “ready enough”, it’ll be TIME. No more waiting after that; at least not for each other. A whole new experience, a whole new FAITH walk, a whole new LIFE and LOVE that we both wanted (and needed!🥰) so much.

So yea, this Unicorn🦄 girl will continue to wait for “him”. He’s definitely worth the wait, because he IS the “one” that God wanted me to have in the FIRST place, before I “got in the way” and made my own life choices. Oh, don’t get me wrong—blessings did come out of some of those relationships as well—I gained a daughter, and now a future son-in-law, a grandson, a friend instead of an enemy (that is, my ex-husband, the father of my daughter☺️), and also, a step-daughter and her family, and a step-son as well. I still consider them all “family” as they do me.🥰. Forgiveness reaps many benefits in this life, and I did “gain” things, even though some of those things weren’t part of God’s ultimate Plan for my life. But He knew I wanted to be a mother, and He answered that prayer, despite the circumstances and life choices at the time. What I gained out of it, is priceless.❤️💎 If God can allow such amazing things to happen in His PERMISSIBLE Will, imagine what He will do for me NOW, that I am finally “IN” His Perfect Will! The verse from Ephesians 3:20 pops into my mind right now—“Now to HIM Who is able to do above and beyond all that we ask or think according to the POWER that works IN us…” THAT is why I am willing to WAIT; not only because “that man” is the one I’ve wanted for so long, but because my Father CHOSE him and designed him especially for ME, and I for him. No one could ever fill God’s “shoes” in my life, nor the MAN He Pre-Destined and Ordained for me.🥰🙏🏼❤️✝️