For as Long as We Wait on God, God Waits Longer on Us

I’m a bit down, for the usual reasons. It just hit me about a little while ago. I have felt it more in the last few weeks, but I kind of stuffed it inside of me, and with all that I had going on, I had no time to cry…until now.

As hard as I try to be patient, upbeat and enthusiastic to what prayerfully will come my way, not knowing what the future holds, what had already happened to me in the recent past, sends me into a tailspin again. The enemy is trying to make me more depressed. I am fighting it every day, but sometimes it starts to “leak out” and it finally did this afternoon.

**Switching gears for a moment here, but it blends in nicely**—I actually started a new Professional Page on Facebook, using my full name that one day, I hope to legally have. The page is under Jeannette (my adopted name) Elizabeth (my original birth name) Geist (my biological father’s last name = “spirit”) Marcelli (my adopted maiden name). The Page is something that the Lord wanted me to do, so I did it. I would have rather waited until my first book was actually published, but I got that “holy nudge” from Him a few days ago, so I got it done.

I know it is going to be a very “slow go” with people acknowledging and regularly visiting it, but you know what? That’s ok. It is all in God’s timing. My part, as Charles Stanley would say, is “to OBEY God, and leave the consequences to Him.”

I wanted to share today’s Streams in the Desert devotional in this blog post. It definitely hit home hard; another “God Wink”. The verse that was quoted is Isaiah 30:18– “And therefore will the LORD wait, that He may be gracious unto you…blessed are all they that wait for Him.”

For as long as we are waiting upon God, He’s been waiting longer for us; that is, to get things right, to get to the point in our lives where He CAN bless us with whatever it was we’ve been waiting for. Of course the writer sneaks in “it will give us unspeakable confidence that our waiting cannot be in vain.” That was the answer to the question I posed to Him late last week— “Lord, please remind me that all that I have done so far on this Journey, is not in vain”—while praying to the Lord about my ongoing “Season of Waiting”.

How about this part where the writer states, “…that even after I come and wait upon Him, He does NOT give the help I seek, but waits on longer and longer?”

The Lord obviously has way more patience than any of us would have in a thousand lifetimes. He knows not to “gather the fruit till it is ripe”. Whether we wait with expectancy and enthusiasm, or hold on for what seems like an eternity(but is it really?), not wanting it to be a moment longer, nevertheless, the Lord knows how long it needs be.

I end with the writer’s last thoughts on the subject, which encouraged me further: “Be assured that if God waits longer than you could wish, it is only to make the blessing doubly precious. God waited four thousand years, till the fullness of time, ere He sent His Son. Our times are in His Hands; He will avenge His elect speedily. He will make haste for our help, and not delay one hour too long.” —-Andrew Murray

Now More Than Ever, Unity within the Body of Christ is Desperately Needed, And The Lord Jesus is Calling His People To Task

Look at this first picture—that is basically what I have been told today by the Spirit concerning where He’s got me right now—in a “holding pattern”. He says there’s still much to be done, and He’ll be using me and many others to get His Church reformed and revitalized, yet once more my life in the past two weeks has placed me in this state of “limbo” , and I’ve been left wondering if I did something wrong, or if not, why am I not moving forward? I know He hasn’t abandoned me, but sometimes the silence is so deafening. I wish He would just finally let me know what’s going on with my school—whether or not we’re going to be back there or just online; where I’m going to live next, and when “that man” will ever show up in my life. Plus, what about all these languages He’s thrown at me lately to learn—Biblical Greek, Hebrew and even Aramaic?! It’s bad enough I’m majoring in Latin in school right now for the past two years, but I am just now starting to put the pieces of that puzzle together as to “why” He was so insistent on me learning it. Sitting tight and “being still” is NOT my forté, but it is what is expected of me at the moment. But the Lord also puts me in these places of stillness, to speak to me and inform me of things from time to time. This is one of those times and subjects that has been impressed upon my heart that the Holy Spirit has been grieving about more and more lately.

I have the privilege every so often, to “see” with my spiritual eyes, the Lord Jesus “darkly” (1 Cor. 13:12). I had that “vision”, as some may call it, yesterday morning, as He stated to me once again, “TRUST ME”. I said to Him, “I say it every day, Lord, as I pray certain prayers, and as I see it on a picture of You as a constant reminder.” He is working on uniting the Church Body (every sect of Christianity that believes in the Trinity/Godhead), reminding us that we are to be as ONE. Too many splits have been made in the Church, and unfortunately, there is so much infighting within each sect, it is sad and disturbing to Him.

As far as Scriptural integrity goes, there will be more splits, because there are some that no longer adhere to what the word of God states; more within each church sect will fall away (2 Timothy 4:3-4). On a positive note, just within the past two months, I’ve come in contact with many brothers and sisters in the Catholic Church who said that the leaders in the last several years, have made it their task to make sure the laypeople are learning more Scripture in Church, and told to read and study God’s Word at home, and within home and prayer groups. I’ve been amazed at how much the Holy Spirit has really burst open the Church doors, and rained down His Holy Fire on them.

I’ve prayed for such a revival over 35 years ago while in the Church, but none would hear of it then; they thought me mad for saying I was “born again” as a Catholic. They said it was ok to read my Bible but it wasn’t really impressed upon us to do so. I asked too many questions that they no longer wanted to answer, and felt like they didn’t need to. Even though I was very involved in the Church, I was no longer made welcome back then, so I left. That is not what the Lord wanted to have happen to me, so He reassured me that it would not stay like that. He gave me a choice back then to either stay or leave; I could tell He wanted me to stay and “wait it out”, but the emotional damage that was done to me at the time left me scarred. I walked out and found another part of the Body of Christ to fellowship with, that not only adhered to Scripture, but had the teaching and moving of the Holy Spirit as well.

The Lord kept His promise to me—He said things would be better in time, although still needing some reform in certain areas. But allowing the Third Person of the Trinity to finally be made more known and taught about to His people, so that He could work within them, has been a major positive change I’ve been delighted to discover. To hear some Catholics say they are “born again and Spirit filled” now is remarkable. Their love for Jesus is not only a spoken thing, He is really present in their daily lives. The RCC has greatly improved in that area.

Yet, there are unfortunately some within each sect of the Body of Christ that ignored the Savior’s commandments, and have “turned from the truth” (2 Tim 4:4) altogether. Both Peter and Paul spoke of these things in their letters and we are the generation that is really seeing this come together. We MUST unite the brethren (John 17:21-23; 1 Corinthians 1:10(see pic); 12:12-13; 2 Corinthians 13:11; John 13:35; Philippians 2:2-3; Matthew 18:19-20; 23:8; Ephesians 1:10; 2:14; 4:1-6(see pic), 11-13, 16; Colossians 3:13-14; Psalm 133:1; 1 Peter 3:8; Romans 6:5; 12:4,16; Galatians 3:26,28).

We are not to concentrate on what divides us as far as the differences in how we praise and worship the Lord; He wants us to concentrate on what UNITES us, and going back to Acts and see how the brethren worked together as one back then. Why should it be any different today? To borrow loosely again from Dallas Jenkins(creator of The Chosen Series)’ quote—let the Lord Jesus deal with the feeding of the 5,000 and let US brothers and sisters in Him concentrate on bringing the loaves and fishes, work together as ONE BODY in Christ, and not bicker over the differences. The Lord is not deaf, dumb or blind to what needs to be changed and reformed in the Body; He works first with the individuals themselves, and then spreads it further within the Body. The Holy Spirit’s job IS to “convict the world concerning sin, righteousness and judgment”(John 16:8); He knows exactly who in the Body of Christ is following Him, and who isn’t.

The Holy Spirit is the SAME “still small voice”(1 Kings 19:12) that is in EVERY believer. For those who will humble themselves and “have ears to hear”(Mathew 11:15; Luke 8:8; Revelation 2:7), I say ALL of us need to go to the Father, and ask Him to point us in the direction HE wants us to go (Isaiah 55:6-7). Spend time with Jesus each and every day in prayer, conversation and studying His Word (Matthew 6:6; Romans 10:17; James 4:8). HEED the voice of the Holy Spirit who dwells within us—He is there to lead, guide, instruct, correct, chastise(let’s not forget those last two!!), comfort and encourage us (Psalm 143:10; Isaiah 30:21; Luke 12:11-12; John 14:26; 16:7-11, 13; Acts 1:8; 2:28; Romans 8:6,9,14,26-27; 1 Corinthians 2:13; 6:19; Galatians 5:25(see pic); Ephesians 1:13; 2 Peter 1:19-21). I do not put these verses in here to “show off” how much I know—I put them in here in the hope that you, the reader, will be a “Berean” and look them up for yourselves, and be edified and encouraged by His Word. I pray that we all would continue to hear His “still small voice” speaking to us every single day. Allow the Lord to teach us, transform us (Romans 12:2), no longer following the masses in their thoughts, values, and lack of common sense, and having the apparent void of God in their lives (Exodus 23:2; Eph. 4:17). Allow also for the Lord to “shatter the glass” in your life, if it is needed. Definition of that saying—“a moment of realization that changes your perception on something” (urbandictionary.com).

So let the Lord lead you, of course. My “glass” was shattered about a month ago now, about the RCC, and how much they have positively changed in the last 35 years since I left, because of what happened to me within my own parish. Reform in every church body needs to be done, and still there are items in the RCC that definitely need to be addressed, but again the Lord was letting me know that He was keeping His promise to me—to make sure that those who had “ears to hear” would hear, and follow Him regardless of what man may have put down as “doctrine”. The Spirit will continue to gather His people unto Himself, lovingly correct, unify and strengthen the Body of Christ. All we must do, is listen, heed His voice, adhere to His Word, allow Him to “shatter” any glass within our lives, and unite as ONE BODY in Christ, so that we all can “be in one accord” with Him, to bring others to Christ, and be a true example of LOVE between all the brethren, speaking in Spirit and Truth. Be blessed.

The Chosen TV Series—How Obedience And Surrendering To God Is Making It All Happen For Our Benefit, And His Glory

I want to start by saying that there have been happily, a plethora of articles and video interviews recently of The Chosen TV series based on the Gospels. It was live streamed on You Tube by Creator and Director Dallas Jenkins, to first get the message out about the series, launching it just prior to the Passover and Easter season. It was perfect that we were all “shut in”, due to the start of the pandemic. God had this all planned out swimmingly to make it happen, and providentially gave Dallas the “idea” to stream it live for everyone.

I also wanted to take a bit of a different approach on the series, from the perspective of the journey the Lord has had me on, and what I recently found out from the testimonies of Dallas Jenkins and Jonathan Roumie, the actor that portrays Jesus in the hit series. Two words kept coming up and matching what I have been going through, and I suspect, many others out there, that God is presently working on in their individual lives—obedience and surrender. I feel like it was those two words that made this series possible, and I know it is making all the changes in my life for the better. Here is a bit of my testimony so far, and also what I have learned about Dallas and Jonathan as well.

It was a little over a year into my Faith walk Journey with the Lord when I felt the burden to pray for something that would stir the hearts of the people. I was getting introduced to many sermons, songs, and books on obedience, walking by faith and not by sight, etc. They were definitely doing a work in me, and I was sensing more and more that surrendering all to the Lord back in December, 2016 was the right thing to do. I was “getting used to different”, meaning it was no longer my will, but God’s will and His way. It was scary at first, but after hearing the Holy Spirit lovingly tell me back then that I was “half-heartedly” serving Him for all those years up to that point, I cried until my chest hurt with a pain I have never felt before.

I thought I was serving Him, but as He explained what His plan and purpose was for my life—the gifts He instilled in me that were there, like singing, being a musician, and writing, but not being used; the relationship issues that continually went on because I didn’t trust Him enough to choose “that man” for me; not tithing as I should have been when I actually had a paycheck TO tithe. He wanted me to surrender it ALL that night in December , and I finally gave in. I said, “Yes, take it all, do what You want with me; You know best, and I’m sorry for not trusting You beforehand. I trusted You with my very soul for salvation—how could I not have trusted you for a spouse, my future, my finances, etc.?” I finally let go, and let Him lead me. He then said, “Good; I can finally take you off the shelf, and begin to use you again. We’re picking up where we left off.” There was a difference of 30+ years there, nevertheless, He was ready to re-start my life as I waited on Him, and still am, for all those things near and dear to my heart.

This quote from the series has been part of my life…now you can purchase this shirt from The Chosen Merch store!

My life has not been the same; I’ve been living step-by-step, day-by-day as HE has willed for me to live a life of total surrendered faith. He has been faithful 100 percent of the time in all that I’ve needed. I’ve had all my necessary bills paid, food on the table and clothes on my back, and then some! You can read more about me if you’d like in my other blog posts, but this particular post is not about just where my faith walk is taking me ever since I surrendered myself over to the Lord; He still has my destiny “under construction”. I’m still in the “before” stage. Let’s concentrate now on what the “after” stage looks like when a person does surrender everything over, walks in obedience, and then finally gets to see the manifestation of that, when they allowed God to do what seemed impossible to them, but was possible for Him.

Going back to all the resources I had working for me to bring my relationship closer to the Lord, I wanted to pray for something to capture the hearts of millions, and turn them over to Christ. I remember the faces of the people in the theaters AFTER seeing “The Passion of the Christ”—they were NOT the same people when they left the theatre that day. Remembering that event, that’s what I wanted to see on a much bigger scale— something that was going to make such an impact that lives would not just be emotionally moved for a while, and then life would go back to normal. It had to be a total life transformation, but what could God do that people would relate to, that will MAKE them want to know Jesus, come to a saving knowledge of Him, pick their Bibles and actually read them? How was God going to pull this off in the 21st century, when this world seemingly couldn’t care less about the very Savior who made it??

Notable quotes from various episodes of The Chosen TV series

Enter The Chosen TV series, that Creator and Director Dallas Jenkins had on his heart to do, once he surrendered everything over to the Lord when a movie (“The Resurrection of Gavin Stone”) that he thought was going to make it big in the theaters, flopped, back in 2017. He thought for sure that God was going to open up doors for him with that, but what God ended up doing to Dallas, sounded the same as what I went through and someone else from The Chosen—He brought him to the point of surrender. Dallas had to lay it all down at the Lord’s feet, and allow Him to do whatever He saw fit, no matter what the outcome was going to be. Dallas and his wife Amanda knew that giving it all to God was what needed to be done, and whatever direction He led them in, was the one path they needed to take.

I’ll let you read or watch about Dallas’ testimony on just how The Chosen came to be born and then fruition. But what I want to stress here is that it happened BECAUSE Dallas surrendered all he had, and allowed the Lord to make the decisions, and put him on the path he needed to walk, in order to make The Chosen what it is today. What God wanted Dallas and Amanda to do, is trust in Him, let HIM “feed the 5,000” and just concentrate on bringing the “loaves and the fish”. It was going to take a whole lot of faith, and at this point in Dallas’ career, a huge miracle, but God was faithful and was about to deliver such a thing unto him.

Within the next several months, Dallas made a short film around Christmas time intended only for his church called “The Shepherd”. He didn’t know it at the time, but that was the “birth” of what was to become the pilot of The Chosen series today. The money that was raised and invested into the series has become the biggest crowd-funded project ever, breaking every record out there. But remember, if Dallas did NOT surrender everything over to God, this may not have had the impact it is had on millions of people by this point. He learned how the Lord was excellent at doing “impossible math” and has now experienced how He has multiplied that many times over.

Another story of surrender that I want to include here, is about the actor who portrays Jesus, Jonathan Roumie. Jonathan has been an experienced actor, director, producer, voice over artist, and a pretty darn good drummer, if you ask me. Again, I’m not going to go into every detail—you can also watch You Tube videos and read many wonderful articles about him online. What I want to concentrate on is how the Lord was also getting Jonathan to the point of surrender in his life, because as you can see by the obvious pattern here in this blog’s story, the Lord was busy putting certain pieces of The Chosen “puzzle” together, and Jonathan was going to be one of them.

Jonathan Roumie as Jesus

Jonathan worked already with Dallas back in 2014 in the role of Jesus in “The Two Thieves”, and also worked on a couple other minor projects with him. In the meantime, Jonathan was getting work here and there in Hollywood, and his spiritual life, albeit good with the Lord, was going to also go under some major “faith construction”. The Lord was bringing Jonathan to that ultimate point of surrender, just around the time Dallas was starting to have things fall into place with his ideas for the tv series, after his Christmas film went viral.

Now up to this point, Jonathan has had a few of what I’ve learn to call, “God Winks” himself. The picture of the Orthodox Icon of the Divine Mercy that “just so happened” to show up at his door one day back in 2003, after he thought to himself if such a thing even existed, he would like to have one. Right there that made Jonathan realize that God was listening to him. Years later, just as the Lord was bringing Dallas to a giant leap of faith where he needed to be to start this Chosen TV series project, around May of 2018, Jonathan’s faith was being tested like never before, and the Lord brought him to the end of himself, where surrender was the only option if he wanted to stay within the Father’s will for his life. His career, finances, etc. was in the balance. As Jonathan was doing all that he could do in his own strength, he started asking God if this was where He wanted him to be. If it was, then fine; if not, to show and tell Jonathan exactly what He wanted him to do. Silence was the answer for a while, and that didn’t sit well with him.

Right when Jonathan was at his most desperate point—not being able to pay bills, no doors of work opportunities opening up, etc., he finally told the Lord one day that he was handing it all over to Him, and that He couldn’t do any more than he already has, and surrendering it all over to God seemed like the only right thing to do. Sounds familiar, huh? Check out episode four and see what Simon goes through and how the Lord brings him to his point of surrender and obedience.

From Episode Four—“The Rock on Which It’s Built”—with Jonathan Roumie (Jesus), Shahar Isaac (Simon), and Noah James (Andrew).

That very day, Jonathan received a few checks in the mail, which ended up paying for all those bills that he was unable to pay. That was not just a coincidence, Jonathan realized—it was the answer to the prayer of surrender he made to God. That was what the Lord was waiting for all along—for Jonathan to allow HIM to make the decisions in his life. It was a few months later, when Jonathan heard from Dallas about The Chosen series project and how he wanted him to play the part of Jesus. The rest is history, and Jonathan’s faith has increased exponentially in the last couple of years because of surrendering all to the Lord Jesus Christ.

Elizabeth Tabish, who plays Mary Magdalene

What I want you to glean from this blog article, is how a person, who already has a relationship with the Lord Jesus Christ, is brought to the end of themselves, even though they have been believers most of their lives. But God has a purpose and a plan for all of us, and He wants us to have the best, and be the best for Him, and His glory. That way, many others are brought into the Kingdom of God through the sacrifice of obedience and surrender to Him. It really is a win-win situation when you think about it. People get saved, come to a relationship with the Lord Jesus, the Family of God gets even larger, and spans across the world, even into the doctrinal differences that the enemy has tried so hard to divide us by. But God sovereignly wins in the end; His will be done, even if some don’t totally surrender to Him. Thankfully, I’ve learned my lesson, albeit the hard way, and Dallas and Jonathan are now not only more fully aware of the individual purposes God has ordained for their lives, but they are also a part of the first-ever and greatest Bible TV series, that’s 100% crowd funded. Only God can pull that off. I myself am but a tiny part of it all—an avid lover and watcher of the series, and now an admin on The Chosen Prayer Warriors page, and that was also all God’s doing and within His perfect timing. I am so grateful to be along for this awesome adventure!

Jesus (Jonathan Roumie) and Simon (Shahar Isaac) from Episode Four of
The Chosen TV series

I pray that you have been encouraged by what you have read here today, and it challenges you, the reader, as well. To learn more about Dallas Jenkins, Jonathan Roumie, and the rest of The Chosen Series cast, you can find them either on Facebook, Instagram, or You Tube, and subscribe to see all the videos of The Chosen, or you can download the app which is http://www.thechosen.tv/app. Right now, all eight episodes of the series are able to be seen for free, thanks to the generous support of every single person who is paying it forward, to see the success of this TV series reach millions for Christ. You can also help pay it forward by getting some of the awesome merchandise which includes the DVD and different apparel. You can find that at http://www.thechosenmerch.com.

Dallas Jenkins, Creator and Director of The Chosen TV Series

I pray that you were blessed by reading all the testimonies. I’m sure there are more than just these, and as God continues to do a work with the series, there will be plenty more from Him! May God bless all who are involved in The Chosen series, and may we continue to surrender our lives over to the Lord God, and see how much more He will do when a person gives their lives wholeheartedly over to Him. Be blessed.

Loneliness And Being Alone—Are They A Gift Or A Curse On This Journey?

I’ve been married twice—the first time, it was because I had a child out of wedlock, and we tried to do the “right thing” by getting married about four years into our relationship. It wasn’t the best of times, and even though I loved the fact that I was part of his big family, we were so not meant for each other. But it was hard to break away because I hated to be alone.

But this second marriage—there was I thought, something different and better about it. After all, he was a “Christian” and we had a lot in common, especially both of us being musicians. We met at church through a friend, and even though I was told over and over again by the Spirit to “WAIT, Jeannette, PLEASE wait”, I ignored those pleas. I soon found myself not only thrilled to have someone in my life again, but within TWO WEEKS, he asked me to marry him, and I said YES! And within four months to the day we met, we were married.

As crazy as that sounds, it happened just like that. The pastor of our church tried to have us wait a while, at least six months or so, until we got to know each other better. But we wouldn’t hear of it; we were determined to be with each other, for we felt that we knew what we were doing. Besides, neither one of us wanted to be ALONE anymore. He was by himself for quite some time, and so was I. We figured we’d be alright because we were Christians, and God would be happy with our current choice, rather than who we had in our past.

Husband Number Two wasn’t married before like I was. Personality-wise, he was the complete OPPOSITE of Number One. That was one of the main reasons I was attracted to him. I realize now that when the Holy Spirit told me to “WAIT”, oh my soul—I should have LISTENED!! There were many issues with Husband Number Two that slowly but surely came out over the next several years. We didn’t have any children, and now I am grateful for that. But out of those thirteen years with him, the latter SIX were some of the loneliest times I had out of married life.

More and more it proved to be I made yet another wrong life choice. Four years before the marriage finally ended, he left me, and for the next three months of my life, it was horrific. As bad as our marriage was at that point, I didn’t want it to end. All the arguments and fights, all the nights one of us would be sleeping on the couch (most of the time it was me—he wasn’t giving up the bed), I couldn’t stand the fact that I just may be ALL ALONE AGAIN. That thought haunted me every single day.

We finally got back together after those three months, but the next four years was more of the same—living as roommates, hardly any intimate time, and even though we moved a couple of times hoping the new scenery and areas would help our marriage, the fact of the matter was, WE weren’t meant to be together either.

Once again, God proved Himself right—if He wasn’t the One ordaining the marriage to begin with, it wasn’t going to last. Once again, I failed. Once again, I found myself alone, at least for a short time, and then I fell into my bad habit again of having someone else to fill the “loneliness” gap for another two years, until finally, the Lord put the “brakes” on back in 2016. Through natural and supernatural means (He is the Revealer of secrets—see Daniel 2:27-28, 47)—when He’s ready to tell us those secrets, He “lifts the veil”, and puts the pieces of the puzzle together—at least enough of it for the time, so we can understand what He’s trying to tell us. For me, I was reminded about WHY the Spirit tried to me make me WAIT on Him back in 2000, and NOT be with anyone else. I needed that time for GROWTH in Him, and in myself. I never gave myself a break since I was 20 years old; I always either dated, or was involved in a long term relationship.

But what the Lord wanted me to do almost three years ago, was to me, very frightening. Being ALONE, by myself, having NO man to go out to dinner with, to be intimate with (but intimacy doesn’t just mean jumping into bed with each other, folks!)—after all, I AM a human; I do desire LOVE, and romance. I am a VERY passionate person, and to be without someone all this time has been sometimes excruciating!! But after what the Lord explained to me just WHO that person was—the “clues” He gave to me years ago, that I just ignored, and never gave another thought to—the Lord was TRYING TO HELP me not suffer any more with having the wrong guy in my life, and I basically blew Him off!

“What the HECK was I thinking?!”, I said to Him after He not only finally divulged the “mystery” of what He told me back in 2000, but He said that no matter what, I needed TIME to heal, and to start living the LIFE He had intended me to live. He didn’t just give me the gifts of music and writing to push aside and never use again; He wanted me not just to survive in this world, but to THRIVE, and FLOURISH. But—the “deal” was, it had to be on HIS terms (that means, according to HIS Word), and in HIS timing of it all.

One of the “terms” was, just what I am doing now—telling others of the very costly LIFE mistakes I made, and hoping that by telling others, especially the younger generation, they will HEED my warnings, and not repeat what I’ve done!

Hence the other part of the “terms” He set forth—to write them down not only in my Journal, and a Blog, but a BOOK. Actually, a series of books, so others can learn from my mistakes, and make better decisions based on the Bible, and having a PERSONAL relationship with the Lord Jesus Christ.

As far as the music portion goes, He led me to a church where I am currently on the Worship Team, and the Worship Leader and I are also in another band that sings and plays classic rock and roll, just for fun. That’s a “God Wink” story for another time.

Being married was always HIS plan for my life—choosing who I wanted, ended up being MY plan, not His. I have “reaped” what I’ve sown all those years ago. The loneliness I’ve felt came in waves these past few years on this “Season of Waiting” Journey; sometimes I feel like I’m going to crash and drown. But then the Lord “shows up”, and as if I can feel His arms around me, He lets me know that I am NOT ALONE; that I AM loved; that I AM worthy of “that man”’s love—when it’s TIME for it; that I have so many things to learn yet, and to also share with others, while I’m still a “solitary”. Until that time comes for God to let “him” into my life, I have to learn to appreciate this time, try and enjoy the Journey, and realize that even though I am by myself right now (and for the LONGEST period of my life, I may add!), I am NEVER alone, for He is always here with me.

Jesus Has Done What NO Other Person Could Ever Do—Defeat DEATH, and give us back NEW LIFE in Him!

Today is Resurrection Sunday, aka Easter Sunday! Christ is RISEN from the grave, and has defeated Death once and for all! Jesus has given us NEW HOPE, and a NEW LEASE on LIFE—Eternal Life, that is. ALL who desire to have their lives dramatically changed FOREVER here AND in the LIFE that is to come, are WELCOME to CALL upon His Name, ASK, SEEK, KNOCK—go to Jesus and realize how REAL He is!!

He’s not an imaginary figure; He’s not a Myth or a Legend; He’s not just some good man that walked the Earth for a time; He’s NOT like any priest, rabbi, pope, prophet, holy man, guru, sage, etc. that’s ever walked this Earth. He WASN’T a man FIRST, and then became a God, as one cult teaches; nor was He a “spirit creature”, or an “angel” that became a human for the time He was on Earth, and then reverted back to his “spirit creature” angelic form, like another cult today teaches. He’s NOT just a “good Prophet”, but yet still lower than some other “so-called” prophet that today is being “preached about”, yet STILL IS IN HIS GRAVE, awaiting Judgment!

No, Jesus is not like ANY of those people who have come either before, OR after Him. He’s the ONLY ONE that is GOD IN THE FLESH (Isaiah 7:14; Matthew 1:22-23). The LORD God through Moses said He would come, and walk among His people (Genesis 3:15; Leviticus 26:11-12; Deuteronomy 18:15-19). Jesus CONFIRMED what Moses said in Luke 24:27, “And beginning at Moses and all the prophets, He expounded unto them in all the Scriptures the things concerning HIMSELF (my emphasis).” Look also at John 5:46, and you’ll see that Jesus also said, “For had you believed Moses, you would have believed Me: for he wrote of Me.” In John 8:58, Jesus basically told the Pharisees, Saducees, and other leaders, flat out WHO He was—“Truly I tell you, before Abraham was, I AM”(See pic!).

The Apostle Peter made mention as well about how Moses spoke of the coming Messiah, yet most of them rejected Him, Jesus, when He showed up (see Acts 3:22-23).

More and more, people are desiring to know the TRUTH about what’s going on in this nation of ours, from the issues in politics, right down to the TRUTH concerning the very foods we eat, whether or not they are good for us, and how they are being handled. If we are so concerned about all those things, HOW THEN can we not be concerned about our very SOULS, and the TRUTH about there being a GOD, and His Son, Jesus Christ, AND the FACT according to the Scriptures (which have a 100% accuracy to this day!), there IS an afterlife, AND a judgment for ALL living souls, whether of not they believed IN Him! It is written, “ALL souls are Mine…” (Ezekiel 18:4). The Lord God Elohim truly IS the “Father of spirits”, as it is written in Hebrews 12:9. Even JESUS’ spirit had to be accounted for, and RETURNED to the Father, upon His death on the Cross—“And Jesus called out with a loud voice, “Father, INTO YOUR HANDS I entrust My spirit” (Luke 23:46, CSB translation). Ecclesiastes 12:7 says, “And the dust returns into its earth, from whence it was, and the spirit return to God, who gave it.”

It was GOD the FATHER who RAISED JESUS from the dead on the THIRD DAY, defeating once and for ALL, the sin of Death and Hell that awaited every living spirit and soul that walked this Earth. ONLY JESUS was without sin; so it was ONLY HE that could take upon Himself the SIN of the world, as it is written. (2 Cor. 5:21). NO ONE ELSE filled His shoes; NO ONE ELSE could “copy” what He did, and NO ONE ELSE will be able to allow us to ENTER into the JOY of the LORD (Matt. 25:23), when we, who are His, will hear on That Day, “WELL DONE, THOU GOOD AND FAITHFUL SERVANT…” There is no other way back to the Father God Elohim, EXCEPT through Jesus Christ, (John 14:6), His only Begotten Son, and it is HE who LIVES and REIGNS FOREVER (Ps. 146:10; Exodus 15:18; Ps. 9:7-12; Lam. 5:19). I’ll write this one out and close with it—Revelation 11:15: “Then the seventh angel sounded; and there were loud voices in Heaven saying, “The kingdoms of this world are become the kingdoms of our Lord, and of His Christ, and HE shall reign for ever and ever.”


When the Suffering of Jesus as the Passover Lamb took on a Whole New Level For Me, and So Many Others

I’m definitely “feeling” it this week; it is Holy Week, and the Passover is also upon us. I can’t wait for that, because I love to celebrate Passover just as much as Easter. It’s because of the Feast of the Unleavened Bread and Passover, that we get to celebrate Easter, or Resurrection Sunday, as it’s also been know as in recent years.

It’s an intense spiritual week for sure—the last week of Christ was chock full of energy, excitement, and emotion. What started out on what we believers call “Palm Sunday”—the day that Jesus rode in on a donkey (Matthew 21:1-7), which was prophetic Scripture being fulfilled right there (see Zechariah 9:9)—the people shouting, “Hosanna in the highest” (Matt. 21:8-11), ended with Jesus being arrested (Matt. 26:47-56), beaten to an unrecognizable figure (Luke 23:13-17), and nailed to a Cross on what is known as Good Friday, dying for ALL of mankind’s sins (Luke 23:33-47).

I saw “The Passion of the Christ”, when it came out years ago. I’ll never forget that day in the theatre—all the people that were in there with their usual drinks and popcorn and such (I knew not to get any that day—would have choked on it while crying), talking quietly prior to the movie started, were NOT the same people afterwards. I KNEW it was going to be intense; I knew that the previous movies about Jesus never really described in depth, what He truly went through. It’s one thing to read a verse or two about Pilate ordering Jesus to be flogged (John 19:1) or “beaten” as some translations have it, but it’s a whole other experience when you see it play out on a huge screen, and how it was done.

The Flagellum (Latin name for it) or “Cat of Nine Tails”, as it is commonly called (see pic), was used for the scourging of any person that was ordered to receive such punishment. Note: the Romans did not use it on their own citizens (see Acts 22:25); it was reserved for criminals, slaves and the like. It was designed in such a way, that just a couple of whips from the Flagellum, would start to rip the flesh off the person. It was usually about three feet long, with pieces of bone, glass, metal, lead, etc. attached to it, so that every whip from it would “catch” on to the person’s skin, and not only leave stripes and welts, it would tear away the skin bit by bit. The person would be tied to a scourging pole, and it wasn’t supposed to go any more than forty lashes; most people would have died from the scourging alone if they received as many lashes.

When all of us watching that scene of Jesus being beaten to a pulp, you could have heard a pin drop in that place. I remember looking around at the viewer’s faces; they were utterly horrified at what they just saw. No longer was it just a couple of verses in the Bible they read once or twice (if that), or something they heard their pastor or priest mention. Now it became that much more real to them. I started to hear gasps and sobs from them.

But Jesus endured all of it, and managed to walk to Golgotha (Matt. 27:33), with Simon of Cirene helping Him to carry His cross (Matt. 27:32).

Clearly, Mel Gibson got his point across, that Jesus truly suffered much more than other films depicted, and Mel brought to life what it says in Isaiah 53:1-10. I will write that entire passage here from the Christian Standard Bible (CSB) version:

“Who has believed what we have heard? And to whom has the arm of the Lord been revealed? He grew up before him like a young plant and like a root (the “root of Jesse”—see Isaiah 11:10, Romans 15:12) out of dry ground. He didn’t have an impressive form or majesty that we should look upon him, no appearance that we should desire him. He was despised and rejected by men, a man of suffering who knew what sickness was. He was like someone people turned away from; he was despised, and WE DIDN’T VALUE HIM (my emphasis, any words you see in CAPS [except for the word LORD] until the end of the quote). Yet he himself bore OUR sicknesses, and he carried OUR pains; but we in turn regarded him stricken, struck down by God, and afflicted. But he was PIERCED because of OUR rebellion, crushed because of OUR iniquities; punishment for OUR peace was on him, and we are HEALED by his wounds. We all went astray like sheep; we ALL have turned to our OWN way; and the LORD has punished HIM for the iniquity of us ALL. He was oppressed and afflicted, yet he did NOT open his mouth. Like a lamb to the slaughter and like a sheep silent before her shearers, he did not open his mouth (Matt. 26:63; Mark 14:53-65).

He was taken away because of oppression and judgment; and who considered his fate? For he was CUT OFF (see what the prophet Daniel said about Messiah being “cut off” after 69 weeks—Daniel 9:24-27, esp. vs. 26) from the land of the living; he was STRUCK (flogged, crucified) because of my people’s rebellion. He was assigned a grave with the wicked (two thieves that were crucified and died alongside Him—see Matt. 27:38), but he was with a rich man at his death (see what Matt. 27:57, Mark 15:43-46, John 19:38-42, Luke 23:50-53 said about Joseph of Arimathea), because he had done no violence and had not spoken deceitfully (see what Pilate (and Pilate’s wife!) said about Him in Matt. 27:2, 9, 24; Mark 15:2; John 18:37; Acts 13:28). YET the LORD was pleased to crush him severely. When you make a guilt offering, he will SEE his SEED, he will prolong his days, and by HIS HAND, the LORD’S pleasure will be ACCOMPLISHED (see Numbers 11:23; 23:19; Ezekiel 12:25; Isaiah 14:24; Psalm 115:3; 135:6).”

It pleased God to put Jesus through all that suffering, pain and excruciating death. Why? All out of LOVE for His Creation. It was NOT just for those who follow Him, and call Him Savior and Lord; but also for those who really couldn’t care less about Him, or what He’s done. The very BREATH that comes out of our lungs belongs to the LORD God; He could “cut off” that ANY second He chooses. He could have left us for eternal Death and damnation, but He CHOSE to sacrifice His only Begotten, NOT CREATED, Son, Jesus, the Second Person in the Triune Godhead, to make restitution for all of mankind. As it is written, “Without the shedding of blood, there is no remission (of sins) (Hebrews 9:22).”

There was and IS NO OTHER way back to the Father God, except through the death of Jesus on the Cross for the sins of mankind. BUT, God didn’t stop there; there was also that THIRD DAY that Jesus “just so happened” 🙄😉to mention about as well😏…❤️✝️🌈

I pray that you have a Blessed Passover, and Easter! Remember to honor God the Father and the Lord Jesus Christ, in all that you say and do. LIVE out your LOVE for Him daily, by professing His Name to others.

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God’s Word is So True, Alive and Active, the Enemy of Our Souls Doesn’t Want Us to Read It!

I know I usually write about my Journey and how God is leading me step by step, day by day in this current “Season of Waiting” that I’m in. But because of something that happened to me a little over a day ago pertaining to God and the validity of His Word, I must make mention of it here. It’s burning up inside of me, and usually when that sort of thing happens, I know it needs to be “said” to the masses.

First off, I’m going to say that God doesn’t necessarily need to me to “fight” His battles, when it comes to letting people know about the validity of His word, and how it’s been preserved over these thousands of years. His Word is exalted above even His Name (Psalm 138:2). But, I AM His daughter, one of many, and since my very eternal LIFE depends on His Word being TRUE and learning (some of it the hard way!) to adhere to the Bible, by reading it, studying it, and LIVING it out, I DO stand up for Him and His Word, when others try to either trash it, make fun of it, misunderstand it, twist it, or worse yet, try to put their belief’s traditions, rules, regulations, etc., ABOVE what God’s Word says(see Matthew 15:3;Mark 7:8-9, 13). The apostle Peter and the others with him said in Acts 5:29, that “we ought to obey God rather than men.” They knew full well not to take man’s traditions and put them above God and His Word.

I myself came out of a church that did exactly that; I’m not saying traditions are bad, but when they start to ursurp God and His Word, then that places that “faith” in a very dangerous position. They’re heading down the road to being an apostate, or worse yet, a false religion or cult. That is NOT where one wants to find one’s self, at the end of their days, realizing that they “did it all wrong” by following in the footsteps of Adam and Eve, who believed the lie from Satan, and allowed DOUBT of God’s word to creep in, and basically destroy all hopes of mankind having eternal communion with God, until JESUS (thank You, Lord!) stepped in (see Gen. 3:15, first Messianic prophecy), and took our place at the Cross!❤️✝️ If we call Jesus Lord and Savior of our lives, and read, study and live by the Bible, we shouldn’t let the enemy of our souls deceive us, nor the precious souls that are still lost in this world, letting them believe the lies of Satan, thinking that God and His Word are not true, and cannot be trusted. Let me explain further by going a little more into my Journey that I’ve been writing about in my blog:

During those 30 years on my “crooked path”, the Lord was still with me; I was called and chosen by Him, to “work” for Him, and use whatever gifts, talents, skills, and abilities He’s given me, for the betterment of the Kingdom, and for His glory and honor. Once I finally was taken “off the shelf”, back in December, 2016 and decided to wholeheartedly follow Him, giving Him total Reign over everything in my life, including my relationships (which was a HUGE thing for me to let go of!), THEN, and only then, did I finally <<click>> into His “Wheel”, and became a cog that has been “fitting” smoothly, going where He goes, doing whatever He wants me to do, and THAT is the main reason why I ‘ve seen and experienced so many “God Winks”—walking with FAITH in the DARK, holding His Hand, produces those “God Winks”—it’s one of God’s ways of “speaking” to me (and other believers!), letting me know that He sees and hears all that I and all other believers are doing and going through, and from time to time, sends us such “notes” of encouragment. They’ve answered many a question I’ve asked, calmed me down when I was fretting, quieted my spirit when I was afraid or starting to think He wasn’t listening, AND even strengthened me much during this whole Journey, giving me the stamina and determination to continue onward. Some of these “God Winks” are the Scriptures that I’ve seen in my daily devotionals that have “fit” exactly to the “T” hundreds of times now over the past two years, moving me forward in my FAITH walk, letting me know over and over again, just how ALIVE and active His Word is in my life, and it’s just one of the ways how God “speaks” to each one of His children that are listening to Him. I know that He’ll continue to reveal Himself more to me as the time goes on, and have the pieces of this “Journey” puzzle fit together, until this “Season of Waiting” that I’ve been in, comes to an end. Until then, as long as I continue to walk according to His Will and purpose for my life, whatever He is “weaving” for me and everyone else involved in and around my life, I WILL continue to see and experience these “God Winks”.

Trials, tribulation, and temptation are also part of the Journey; along with that, is the Spiritual Warfare portion—not my favorite part of this whole thing, that’s for sure🙄😒. I wish THAT could be left out. But, Satan hasn’t stopped stealing, killing, and destroying (John 10:10), and won’t, until the Lord Jesus throws him into the Pit for 1,000 years (Rev. 20:3), and then finally, into the Lake of Fire (Rev. 20:10). All those who never came to the Lord, and who were judged at the White Throne Judgment (Rev. 20:11), according to their WORKS (Rev. 20:12-13), will also meet their end there. Until the DAY that I am HOME with the Lord, I have to endure such Warfare; I am not the only one—EVERY single person that names the Name of Christ, if they are truly serving Him, comes under such satanic attacks. But, we have to recognize what is a spiritual attack, and not allow ourselves to be deceived into thinking it’s just people that are the enemy.

Human spirits, as stiffnecked and stubborn as they are🙄, are the ONLY ones that can be redeemed, hence the reason why the enemy of our Souls keeps making the majority of the Earth’s population think that HUMANS are the problem, their RELIGIONS and BELIEFS are the problem, their POLITICAL VIEWS are the problem, etc., when all along it’s HIM—Satan, that’s being ALLOWED to make all the confusion and confrontations that occur. Hatred, Fear, Pride, Arrogance, Dread, belief in False gods, etc., end up producing Sickness, Disease, and Death, in most of the world’s population, and it’s all because we’re sitting here, blaming each other, when HE’S been the instigator the whole time. He’s not called “the accuser of the brethren” (Rev. 20:10) for nothing. But he doesn’t just go after the believers. Those who couldn’t care less about God, the Bible, and believe nothing about the spiritual realm or the afterlife are also widely targeted by Satan.

Humans that don’t believe in the spiritual realm, are just the type of people Satan and his demons are counting on, so that he can continue to confuse and confound mankind to NOT believe in the Lord God Almighty, Who “just so happened” to be his BOSS (Lucifer was THE Worship Leader in Heaven—he was the one that was responsible for the Music—God gave him that job, and as soon as he got kicked out of Heaven, he PERVERTED all the gifts given to him, and used them all for EVIL henceforth). HE is the main reason why we have so many different religions, false gods, even “Christian” sects!! Anything and everything to point in the opposite direction of the Lord God Almighty, is what Satan has done, and we as blind men, have followed him, and some will continue, right into the Lake of Fire.

“If you can’t beat them, join them”, was a popular saying as I grew up. Well, it makes sense when it comes to what Satan and his cohorts, the demons (some of them fallen angels) have come up with, especially all the false religions, but even better still, are those “Christian” sects that are SO CLOSE to the real Biblical born-again New Life in Christ, that with just a “tweak” here and a “switch” there, some people have fallen for what SEEMS like Biblical Christianity, but in reality, they are almost as lost as the unsaved. HENCE the reason why every believer in Christ NEEDS to know the Bible, backwards and forwards! Every non-believer should NOT just “dismiss” it as hogwash, or some mystical “mumbo-jumbo”, without checking it out for themselves! Put it to the test, people! SEEK God out (Deut. 4:29; Psalm 14:2; Matt. 6:33)! Sincerely CALL out to Him, and He WILL answer you (Jer. 33:3; Psalm 18:6; 107:27-28; Psalm 34:17; Romans 10:9-13)! The LAST thing that Satan wants a human spirit to do, is to call on the VERY ONE that he used to praise and worship himself!!

Scripture says we have to be “wise as serpents and harmless as doves” (Matt. 10:16, NKJV). 1 Peter 5:8 tells us to “be sober, be vigilant, because your advesary the devil walks about like a roaring lion, seeking whom he may devour.” Jesus told us flat out, that HE was the ONLY way, the TRUTH and the LIFE (John 14:6), and that NO man, NO religion, NO cult, NO “ism” or any other way is going to lead mankind back to the Father, but by JESUS and HIM alone. I’m going to use caps here, folks, because it’s THAT important—we’re talking your ETERNAL SOULS, here: IF IT DOESN’T POINT BACK TO JESUS BEING THE LORD AND SAVIOR OF YOUR LIFE; IF HE ISN’T BEING CALLED “THE SECOND PERSON OF THE GODHEAD” (Father, Son, and Holy Spirit); IF HE ISN’T BEING RECOGNIZED AS “THE IMAGE OF THE INVISIBLE GOD” (Colossians 1:15), and that after you TESTED THE SPIRITS (1 John 4:1-3), to see whether or not that particular “faith” you want to get into, is the REAL THING, and they tell you in one way or another, that Jesus is a good or great man, or Prophet, or even goes as far as to say that He is the Son of God, but a LESSER god😳🚩, or that the god they serve never HAD a Son, or spoke about Him, or TO Him (Genesis 1:26; 11:7; Psalm 2:7, 12; Mark 1:11; Luke 3:22)—or that He was only a spirit creature, and was never really fully human AND divine at the same time (God in human form = Immanuel = “God with us”) as it is written in Isaiah 7:14; Matt. 1:23; Zeph. 3:17; Matthew 28:20; John 1:14; 14:9,16-17, THEN you may be getting into something that has nothing to do with the real God of the Bible, or His Son, Jesus Christ, or the Holy Spirit, Who is the Comforter, Counselor, and Who dwells in each and every believer (see John chap. 14-16 about the Holy Spirit’s role in our lives!)!

Satan will do whatever it takes, to make God look like the liar, and not him! Messing around with God’s Word is a very serious offense. The Lord God had it written in Deut. 4:2, Proverbs 30:5-6, and Revelation 22:18-19, commanding us to not add to, nor delete from His Word. He has been able to protect His Sovereign Word from every enemy that has tried to eradicate it one way or another. He will NEVER let that happen; it is written in Isaiah 40:8, “The grass withers; the flower fades, but the Word of our God stands FOREVER.” Matthew 24:35 also states (Jesus Himself speaking), “Heaven and Earth may pass away, but My words will not pass away.”(ESV) God has protected His word throughout the thousands of years; He wants us to get to KNOW HIM and His Son, Jesus, by reading, studying, PRAYING, calling out to Him, and living out His Word in our daily lives, just as I am doing in my FAITH walk. We need to learn to TRUST GOD more than man; Numbers 23:19 says, “God is not a man that He should lie, nor the son of man that He should repent: has He said, and shall He not do it? Or has He spoken, and shall He not make it good?” (AKVJ) Satan has done an “excellent” job unfortunately, duping most of us at one point or another (even believers!), to NOT take God’s word so seriously. That’s a HUGE “nail in the coffin” for him if one not only starts to BELIEVE in the Lord Jesus Christ, but then TAKES GOD AT HIS WORD—that kills Satan “on the spot”!

Trusting IN God, OBEYING Him, learning to lean on Him, humbling ourselves before Him, meditating on His Word, getting to know Him better, and seeing supernatural Holy Spirit-inspired “God Winks”, or whatever you the reader may want to call them when God answers your prayers—all these things I have been doing faithfully for the past two plus years, and NOT ONCE has He failed me!! NOT ONCE have I gone hungry, or had any other needs not met. Once a person (like myself) hands their ENTIRE LIVES over to the Lord God, and starts to serve HIM, it can only BE a “win-win” situation! Oh, the trials, tribulations temptations, and occasional bouts of Spiritual Warfare will be there—it goes with the “territory”. But God has given us His Word to learn more about Him, and gain wisdom, knowledge, and understanding; also for us to grow, mature and use to fight the evil in this world with—“All Scripture is inspired by God and is profitable for teaching, for rebuking, for correcting, for training in righteousness, so that the man of God may be COMPLETE, equipped for every good work.” (2 Timothy 3:16-17). We ARE overcomers of evil when we have God on our side!!

God has also given us this Word so we can live out our PURPOSE here on Earth, and find out what God’s WILL is for our lives. He has SOVEREIGNLY made a plan for each one of us (Jeremiah 29:11); but it is up to US to find out what that plan is. The only way we’re going to find out, is if we CALL upon the Name of the Lord, and ASK, SEEK, and KNOCK (Matt.7:7).

Do NOT allow that spirit of DOUBT that got to Adam and Eve(Genesis 3:1), get to you! Satan is a LIAR, and the father of lies(Jonn 8:44)! LIVE OUT the Purpose that God Pre-destined for you! You are PRECIOUS in His sight (Isaiah 43:4)! Your life COUNTS to Him; learn to be a blessing to others, and give God all the honor and glory due His Name. Be blessed. ❤️✝️